HWHWHW

Now is the time to CHOING R. Zzz. Doing HW now and found out I do not understand a thing about chem and P and C. P and C leh, the most easy topic in A math I think. The good thing is I finally decided to go cut down weight. Haha. Too fat le.

for tag bored

And if they do not ask her they will ask me cause I always in the same map as them or I am always with them. (do you even noe what this means). If i say no they will start saying sure anot? they always together leh. bla bla bla. Then some people might say to stop these people to stop asking you, ask them to ask her lah. This equals same result. I am like being force into this thing just because ong wants me to heal her character so she no need to waste so much mesos.
Then what you want me to do? quit maple r? I not like you got stead in singapore cannot always go out. Then you say go out with ervin they all but they always maple. Study? Since when do you see me study.

tired

Ya I am dame tired. These few days keep on accompany my cousins go out.

The morning ritual
Every morning we will just sit in front of the tv and decay. We watch fruit basket or FMA sometimes even some english movies even though their english suck and I need to find shows with chinese sub.

The bloody sun.(afternoon)
Actually I have no idea what we usually do in the afternoon. Sometimes we go to the park sometimes continue to decay. And finally we go to walk walk and buy more vcds to watch.

The night cat.
At night we will go party or maybe go out play pool. Went to orchard at 25 dec. There was some sort of celebration there so it was really pack. There was also flower cars (is that what you call them?) and many display but not as good as last time. So we walk and walk until all of us start to fall apart. Wanted to take the underpass to the MRT but it was close. Miss by a few mins. So we have to walk there, walk and walk and saw a underpass. I went up to the policeman and ask him can this lead us to the MRT he said can. So we went through the underpass and when we came out, we cross the road. Zzz. So we walk back to our starting place and this time we walk to the MRT.
At the mrt I told them if get separated meet at AMK. My cousin complain that I was saying until she will be the one separated. Then when the MRT came it was fully pack and we keep on trying to find a door that was empty. Found one and all of us rush in but in the end my cousin did not make it. So saying to her was the right thing to do.

Zzz

No mood to do anything. Don't feel like doing my homework nor maple. Haiz. What should I do?
Now I can 100% confirm they everyday talk on phone, don't believe me? Can call and try. All of us wondering when the hell will they get together.
So what happen these few days.
Monday went to bring some one I don't know to tour Singapore. The best part is when how to fetch the person from the airport.
Tuesday went to play badminton and nothing much
Today went out with my mom after her long trip to China. When we went out for lunch I found something very extraordinary. One of the lady working at the coffee shop is collecting empty can not for herself but for her neighbour. What is so extraordinary when this can be seen everyday at the old folks home? Well it is simply because she works in a coffee shop. All of you know this kind of job is low paying (bla bla bla), the fact that she cares more about the people around her compared to herself is special.
And I can some how say I stop maple liao.

Awake

Yup I am awake but still feeling a bit strange. Actually I just woke up to watch TV cause of the comedy shows. Haha. Haiz, now a new person got BF so planning to play badminton even more harder. You all purposely one right? Want to make life hard for me. Maybe I should quit the organising committee which consist of only one person, me plus James who sometimes try to help me. For once why not you all try to plan when to play badminton.
O ya, I have a problem which need you all to help me solve.
Online one day you ask who wants to watch a movie then your friends give you their reply. Then the day before the movie one of them feeling not well however it was not the sick person(A) who told you about it, someone else told you(By the way the person is just someone close to A) . Further more (A) did not know you know that he/she is sick.(Confusing right?) So if on that day of the movie, (A) still did not tell you that he/she is sick. Is that person at fault or that person has done nothing wrong.
One last thing, I am so not talking to that ass, he made me feel like vomiting blood by the way he reply.

not feeling well

Reason being I just went for morning jog. Now got headach but the thing is I only run for 3.5 rounds. My eardrums also hurt like hell. PAIN.
O yes, someone going to go on stead le(finally). The person you all know one, is the ass and da. Haha, those blur le just guess, very easy one.
Now going to go to sleep. Miss my bed.

Missing

Haiz. When will be the time when everyone in badminton gang can go for badminton together and not some missing. The effect of one person not being there is quite big actually. Like Jamie is the one who always makes us laugh with what she says while Ervin is the one who kills people with the shuttercock. James will be there doing actions while most of us try to mimic them. As for me, I will be the one running around hitting the shuttercock. Haha. When Jamie does not come the court will sometimes be silent, when ervin does not come some of us may feel uneasy as there are no shuttercocks to avoid.
Now some of them are going out with their new clicks like cat always go out with her nursing friends and Jamie is busy with her CCA. Ong leh, haiz don't say le. Anyway the whole badminton gang knows it. Haha.
So could the gang be falling apart?(Must be due to most of us playing Maple :P) Haha.

Died

Hate people who leach from ME in the game (unless I allow it) and people who say go toilet then don't know disappear to where (also leaching from me)

Sky high

Yesterday went to watch sky high with my evil partner and ah ma. Haha. Ah ma was late cause she end school at 12 and our show was 1210 but lucky us, when we entered the advertisement just ended. We wanted to go to out sits but there was 2 love birds blocking our way so we decided to sit at the back row. Just when the sit is warm, the owners of the sit came, so we had to move to our actual sits (so ma lu). Sky high totally rocks, you all should watch it.
So after the movie, we went to eat pastamania. Because it was my first time eating that I had no idea what to eat. When I figured out what I wanted t eat I ask my evil partner why the person never come and take our orders one. Haha, she say you must go there and order yourself and ask me I first time eat r? You know in those tone where is a bit sarcastic. But when I said yes they were like O~~. Haha. Then we talk about crazy staff again. O ya, one day all of us go play starcraft. Haha, very long never touch le.
So after lunch we went to check prices of staff for my evil partner. Then the rest of the day pass as usual.
O yes, who wan to watch Harry potter on 17 Nov. 6pm at J8.

God forsaken blog

Yup this is a god forsaken blog. Haha. I am only blogging now cause I cannot play maple. Haha. A lot of things happen. Went out a lot during these few day and found out I getting a bit like ah beng. Haha. Even though I know it will be so unlike me. I think is being influence by my bro cause after he went into NS he start scolding "#@%$" you all should know what that means. And then I also start scolding "%$#@&". Haha. A bit more colorful then his.
To say the truth JC life sucks made almost 0 friends and made many enemies, now even some secondary school friends are my enemies but the problem is I don't even know why they hate me. Weird people.
Went to Malaysia to attend my cousin's wedding. Haha, still prefer Malaysia to Singapore, the air there is better cause there are a lot of trees. Or maybe is I prefer the kampong life. Or maybe cause there have less stress. In Malaysia me and my bro always feel that we are at home, even though we can spend one whole day doing nothing we still think it is better then Singapore. Haha, cause doing nothing there is less costly compared to Singapore.
So the wedding dinner totally sucks cause of the food, feel that there is no taste in them, Ok I know I am exaggerating, there is little taste in them. But the entertainment is good, cause my aunt teaches dance, so before and during the wedding there is the free dance session where people can just go to the center and dance.
So going to end the post here. O ya, any of you want to watch Harry potter? Evil partner you want to watch right? So who else to call?
Forgot to add, Jamie very long never see you le. Miss my evil partner.

Addicted

Haha, at first you keep on saying you are not addicted to the game but in the end you will find yourself keep on playing it.
Today went to school and I pass. I should not use the word pass cause it can mean many things. I got promoted. Yeah I think cause I still do not know if I want to go into a poly a not. poly is quite fun I guess. No, should not be I guess, poly is very fun. So after school went for bowling and found out that most of them play maple story but the sad part is they play in another server. The weird thing is when I say I was 43 they were all shocked. It is easy to get to level 43 I think. Haha. After bowling rush to play badminton with the badminton gang. After that went out to eat and saw miss Lim and Mr Lin, haha, Ervin said they go out eat never call him. Haha. So eat and eat then they decided to come my house and create havoc. So this was how my busy day pass and now I am dead beat. I am going to sleep. Good night everyone.

PW SUCKS

Just here to tell the whole world that PW sucks (maybe I will get jailed for this). It take up too much of our time. Why can't the 10% to enter university come from our CCA? Further more the everyone is telling us that CCA is important but now in JC CCA has become not so important. So what is CCA for? Is is just some activity for us to relax or is there a big picture behind it.

Just really too bored

Cool right? Haha, too bad it is not realist in this world cause of all the pollution, you know what I mean. Strange thing is everyone know that pollution can harm them yet they still do not want to give up what they are doing that give of this pollution. All of you agree with me right? We want to have fun and do all the things we enjoy. Every time we use on our air con, television, computer (and the list goes on), we are harming the environment. The root of this problem I believe is temptation, the question is why are people so week against it, why do people find it so hard just to give up things.

Sometimes I wish that I am living in the past where people live simple lives, where people live in tune with the environment. The problem is how long can one live like that when they know there is a better life out there. A life where everything is just around or even better just a click away. Because of this lifestyle everyone is getting more obese as all these require little energy. (copyright of SRJC GP lecture notes) Maybe one day children will die before their parents because of heart problems. Maybe when technology advances, people do not even need to get out of their bed just to do things. Which we can say could lead to the end of the world. How does it lead to that you can think for yourself. Be creative, that is what humans lack nowadays.

On the good side of not having to leave the house, we will not get attack my UV rays and apply sun block lotions before we leave the house. Due to the pollution the ozone hole is just too big to repair itself unless a lot and I mean really a lot of years have gone past. Dun even think that humans can do something to repair it cause there is no way they will figure out how to copy what nature can do. Don't believe me, well too bad cause it is true. Like diamonds human can copy it but it is not the same as what nature has done which is why we have fake diamonds. If one day we are able to clone people, it feel that it would not be able to move or a lifeless doll because it does not have a soul in it. Maybe there is a chance where the ghost will possess it. Maybe this is why I don't really like people, weak but think that they can do anything.

Bored.

Yup I am so bored, must try to make myself study and not play maple, haha. A bit addicted to it. Every time reach home is play maple till level up then stop. Haha. Just wan to up one level but after my exams I will catch up with Ong and Wen can try but it is very hard to catch up. As for cat, give her 2 years also cannot catch up. And this is not an insult, actually it is to praise you. Not so easily addicted to games. Haha. So now is study study study.

dieded (AGAIN)

Math was so hard i think. going to fail it.

died

Econs was a killer and I have died under the mighty wrath of econs. (Again) So it should be dieded. Haha. Well not much to say today, just that I am going to die for tomorrow's math paper. Wish me luck if not buy me a coffin. If I fail math I also have no one to blame but myself cause I have not practice it and is playing game almost the whole day. So going to do it now. Haha.

Promos

So many things happen yet I am too lazy to blog them in. Haha, like the chalet. Find me very care free right? Promos coming still go chalet and I was the only JC student there. I had no idea how we pass the time there, All we did was play in X-zone, my PS2, BBQ for almost the whole night and the famous Big2. Wanted to go night cycling but too bad the shop had close. Haha, anyway they say the next coming chalet will most probably be 5 years later.(Those who miss it, too bad I think.) Haha. But we will still see each other either going out play badminton or play online games.(Maple story and SC,SC I will start playing again after my PROMOS.) When will we ever be sick of seeing each other. Haiz. Still miss secondary school days when our principle talks and the heavens will be on our side making the sky going to rain.

(Ppl playing metal slug 3 behind haha)
Enough of that, we must move on right? Haha. Suppose to be studying math now but cannot be bothered and it is not because my math is very good, my math sucks. Now thinking back, should not have taken the JC life cause, well, it sucks. Stress here and there. This does not mean poly have no stress, it is just that poly is more slack. But is JC is also good in some way or another, I found out I was able to remember most of the things my teacher said in tutorials and lectures. Haha, even though I not write it down. Maybe I am starting to develop photo memory which you can say it is quite good, especially in math. Math... ARGH... Have to do math now. Sian sia.

Tired yet not tired

Haha. Just came back form Malaysia. How I wish I could stay there longer. Strangely, every time I go Malaysia I always say I going back not going to. Haha, sometimes I also say it is my home.
On my way there I was smsing quite a number of people cause don't want to get bored. Keep on ga jiaoing cat then message master cartwheel about the chalet thing. Then have to confirm with Dennis if we should call the other "masters". Haha. While messaging master cartwheel I feel that we have a bit of generation gap. Reach there about this morning then went online to chat with my little bro a.k.a Dennis who keep on bugging me to help him buy bubble gum. And I did not but bubble gum, the shop I went only got chewing gum. I was using Chinese to type in Malaysia cause it is so EASY to use. Haha. I can just type like I am typing English. Then little bro keep on saying I type wrong word. It is 3+ in the morning of course will type wrong word cause cannot see properly lah and you also know my Chinese standard. Then my cousins say my friends all crazy one cause all so late still online. I find her friend even more crazy cause call her at 3 a.m. Then I keep on saying is her BF.
In the morning woke up at around 8 then most of my cousins, the one that are not asleep are have left the house very VERY early. In the end they say I weird person, can sleep at 4 and wake up at 8 and still look so energetic. Cannot blame me lah, JC is like that one. Then I did a bit of homework there, all anyhow do cause it is all GP. Haha, like I even care.
I was there teaching them English and playing computer games and cards at the same time. Haha, don't believe me next time we come out then I show u how we do things, haha. After that went for wedding lunch (your eyes are not playing tricks on you, it is lunch). Cause all of us were separated so all of us are very bored. The whole time I was staring at my drink and waiting for the waiter to refill it. I think for the last 1 hour they did not come to refill my cup, only my aunts(discrimination to children) then went back home. As in Malaysia that home. We did what we always do before I come back Singapore. The only 3 options of things we will do, play computer or cards or watch TV.
On my way back I sleep quite little cause what they talk about is very entertaining. Haha, I cannot imagine I will be interested in adult talk, I must be getting older. We were laughing at some national things and say that it is quite lame to implement them. Well, chat and chat and finally got home. Very sad about this fact that I am in Singapore. Ending here, good night to all who are out there.

lalalala

when to read Master Cartwheel's Blog, haha, did not know she have a funny side. too bad she does not have a tag board. if there is one it will be flooded my 4E2 people. maybe when i see "master cartwheel" online i shall tell her.
now it is holidays, yeah(sarcastically). even though have holiday but cannot really relax. quite regret that i went to JC, on the other hand i will also regret if i went to poly. strange right.
Now have to focus on studies but not too much, if too much i will go siao and i really mean siao. haha, the 4E2 people will know how siao i can really get.
i wonder how much time do we spend enjoying when we are young. all of you guys out there can agree with me that too much time is spend on studies. that is the werid part. when we are young we concentrate on studies and no one will say anything about it. when we become adults and we want to enjoy people start saying thing. (i have feeling i said this before) haha.
not to the badminton gang. maybe we not playing on wed but on thrusday. you guys free?

Chong boon teachers are the best... wo hoo...

all right, I shall make a shot blog and i shall not be bothered with my spelling mistakes. we back to cb for teachers day, totally rocks except for the principle. she commented on the way people dress but how can this affect the students. what i mean is that even when the students dun get the influence from school, they will still get it outside school. but lets not let her spoil our day. we went into the teachers room to chat with them. bla bla bla, u noe the usual thing. the only thing that was special was i got to eat lots and lots of cake. haha.but on that day i was quite shocked. haha. GJ actually sms me to accompany him to go to school. haha. strange as i thought he was still angry with me but i guess that is the best birthday present he could give me. haha. but in the end he could not make it as he was rather busy with his projects. he actually told me to enjoy myself in school, haha. then today went out to "study", in the end i was trying to complete all my homework intead of doing revision. now still haven complete the homework. the strangest thing is i am doing math, so wried.

Exams

Miss 4E2. (Now and always will) some of the guys are hiding.
Well all of our exams are coming and before you know it, it is just tomorrow. Haha. I enjoyed my birthday very much even though only a few people celebrated it with my. The worst thing was I had common test on my birthday. Well this is life, you cannot expect things to go the way you want it to. Went to play badminton with James, Cat, Wei ming, Alicia and diana (the two of them was not suppose to be in there) Haha. Nothing seems to be the same when the whole gang is not there. Espacially my evil partner. Haha. Going out with her after our exams.
Now all of us are mugging for our exams (I am starting soon) haha. The only thing connecting us is of course the MSN. But we seldom chat and jamie still have her connection problem. Well, she will be organising a chalet soon and again almost the whole badminton gang will go. This time I hope I do not have to go back to school on one of the days.
Today trying to complete all my homework. This morning went for fun fair after my church. Went to see the two (extra,kidding) of my classmates doing games there. Alicia brought me to the hunted house and we walk the reverse direction(haha).
I hate english, the teacher give us so much homework every week and she go through is only going through the AQ part. I wish she will go through the question part cause most of the marks come from the question. There is also a new teacher for my english, she seems to be teaching quite well but it also seems like she is feeding us with answers. Chinese have a bit of problem preparing for my oral presentation cause I have very little things to say. Well going to do my homeworks. Signing off here.
P.S: Evil partner you that photo uplaoding thing I have no idea how to use it. Haha.

LAZY

Too lazy to blog but in the end I am still blogging. Haha, cause I don't want to do my homework. Hehe. So many thing happen, Ndp(preview), Srjcians' day (totally rocks) , then Ndp (real one), Kbox(which made me broke) and elearning. Haha. Most of the time on these days I was out playing. Especially elearning when everyone was doing and I have completed all of it. Now all the homework and test reminders start coming back to me. Die. Haven study for my test and I have not done all my paper homework. Still need to pack my chemistry file which all of the content is scatter across my room. Haha.

the 7 month

wo ho... the 7 month is finally here. waited for it for a very very long time. haha. you guys must think i am crazy. but i don't care. maybe go look for old friends if you get wat i mean.
tml having econs presentation, feel happy (win prize) nervous (cause presenting to the whole jc1 econs students) and now i wish the teacher nv choose our class. feel that my points are just crap. then still got best speaker award. haha, hope our class can win both first prize and best speaker. wish me luck for tml k? and all my old friends out there, if can r, help me cover the ears of the judges when our class make a mistake. hehe.

and smoke

and more planes

planes

planes

have no idea y i took this

UFO in singapore

group photo (cat jamie ting me)

Shocked

First was my GP then just now my house went black out. Have no idea what is going to happen next. I think will be something more shocking to scare my spirit out of my body. Let me guess. Ok, better not say if not it will really happen. Dame scared now. Have no idea what to do.

FAILED ALL MY CT

Yup, I failed all my common test except for math but did not do well for it either and just pass for it also. English I got 13/50 Econs I got 17.5/70 Chem I forgot what I got just remember I scored a AO and math I scored 35/75.

alone again

My mom gone overseas again, 2 days alreay. Haha, got use to being alone at home already. When you are young you always think that being alone in the house is pretty fun as you have the freedom to do what you want. In fact it is not fun when you are always alone. Haha, guess they don't know they feeling of coming back to an empty house.
Hmm. What I do today. Went to watch F4(Fantastic 4) with Jamie and Kenneth, cool show. After that went to eat ice cream, hehe, the ice cream was to nice. Ask ah ming to watch with me but he say got a lot of home work. Give up asking him out to watch movie or to play badminton all this cause every time I ask him he always say cannot.
Today have so many home work but don't feel like doing. Too lazt to do. Wonder what will happen to me of I don't do. O ya. Have to do my econs file. Stop here. Nothing else to add le ba.
Last thing, tomorrow will be having my chinese oral, wish me luck. Hope I can score will to help me pull up my chinese marks to just pass or better. You guys know how much my chinese sucks lah. So lots of luck is needed. Haha, good night to all of you reading this.
17 more days to NDP preview (can't wait)

1.5km

Pathetic right? I only manage to run 1.5km non stop which is lousy cause in secondary school I can run 8 rounds around the school(beacuse I was in TAF) non stop. Haha. Cannot tell right? That I was in TAF before. Well on my way there I saw some one whom I have no problem with but he has a problem with me. He just turn around and went to hide. I did not even know it was him until he turn around. Come on, turing around and walk away makes notice you more. Maybe when we walk pass each other we will not even know it cause you guys know me, always day dreaming and will not notice what is around me until some one call me.
I have eyebags now, I feel that is because I play too much computer, hehe. Well that was during saturday and sunday.
Do your home work and when you don't know ask your teacher. After your teacher explain finish, if still don't understand DON'T ask your teacher again. Think of a LIGICAL reason on what she say. If it is Math, hehe, this is even worst. Just keep on trying and trying until you can solve. Worst come to worst, ask the teacher but do not copy the answer onto your answer paper. copy it some where else then try the question again. If still cannot get then refer on the answer to see where you have gone wrong. All these sound farmiliar to me but the main question is do I do it? Haha, I guess that is why I am getting failing results for my test.

brings back memories... was taken last year on my comfirmation...

group photo with serena xiao jiao wei jun ME kelvin(my twin bro) and chris(who almost blocj my face)
This has been bought to you by the courtesy of kethy
taken on metier 5

look like a idoit trying to copy the ITE advertisement
This has been bought to you by the courtesy of serena
(this was so long ago)

hopeless?

Me hopeless?
I think some one who does not even dare to leave his or her name when writing comments is more hopeless then me. If you were refering to no one looking at my blog then you are wrong cause they came to see it and have given me and answer. If you were refering my my spelling, well I have to say everyone has their own specialty. When I type some thing everyone knows it is me is cause of my spelling. It is all these small things that makes you different and stand out from the rest. Even my name makes me special and I am not afriad to state what my name is. Unlike some people who want to comment on people and don't even dare to leave their name. Maybe he does not dare to put his name cause me comparing me and him I am having a far more better life. What can you say, I am rich (money in bank still increasing cause still working), have many real friends, good family,in a good school, I even have people who say they want to take care of me when I grow old. Further more, it takes one to know one. So I assume that person is more hopeless than me?
But I cannot blame that person reason being he already wrote he is a strange boy.

I am so dead

I am going to fail all my common test. Hmm... Maybe if I fail all I will drop school and join vincent in working then go army next year then after come out go poly. Not a bad idea. Haiz. Should have gone to poly. I have no idea why I want to, maybe because the whole badminton gang is there. Haha. Miss them. Hope can play badminton again soon. This sat you guys free? I don't even think you all will be bothered to look at the blog. Haha. Cause I so long never post anything.
Now is time to crap
On sat went to Wild Wild Wet and sun tan. So fun. We were going on rounds in the wave pool and talking about XXX who have change a lot. We just go with the flow (wave). No matter how hard I try the wave always make my back face the sun and now my back have sun burn. Strangly, my bro said my skin looks like it have finish peeling off the skin. Haha, still have to say the same thing. Weird family geans. And today, I have recovered from my sun burn. Having to recover faster also have side effects. I will get even serious sickness if I take medcine, it comes with the geans. Guess I am going to stop here. Haha, have to do my chinese. Don't know how to do. Sian. Ahh. The ABC check is gone.

PISSED

I AM SO BLOODY PISSED WITH MY FRIENDS. End of post cause people say I writing nonsense.

Badminton gang

The badminton gang rocks.
Haha, today finally played badminton after SO LONG. I feel that my reaction getting slower and slower. I have no idea why, usually every time I can hit the shuttlecock back but this time the shuttlecock came and I was staring at it. Have no idea what I was thinking. Maybe not enough sleep. Then after a while, Jamie did some funny things, she was talking to the shuttlecock and start cursing Ervin. Then she even start throwing the shuttlecock and it feels like saying "you are free, free to go." Then even Dennis join in by acting out Star wars preview treating the badminton racket as light sabers. Haha. I was laughing until I cry. The only one that never laugh at it I think was Ervin. I know it is a bit childish but it is funny right and I think that is why our class is always to noisy and why we always get punish my the teachers. After that we were deciding where to go, Jamie wanted to watch movie but in the clothes we were in is a bit crazy. So we decided to go J8 to eat. All 4 of us was squeezing in ong's father's car while Dennis was sitting in the front COMFORTABLY. Jamie with her long leg, don't want to say but you get the scene right? Reach J8 we all rush out of the car and said bye to ong. Sad she cannot join us. Then said bye to Ervin also cause he went home. Only left Dennis, Jamie and me to have lunch together. Went to long John to have lunch. Then decided to watch Mr and Mrs Smith which totally rocks, you have to watch it for yourself, cool show. As we had time to before we went to watch the movie, we decided to take a few neoprint. Haha, did the badminton gang thing again. Too bad some of the were not there. Anyway, who is in badminton gang? Cause some of them sometimes come sometime don't come, some only come for one time, so are they counted?

Enjoy

Went all out to enjoy myself. Yesterday went for cantabile with Ah Ming, Cat and Serena I try eat all I can at the same time watch the performance($40 of course have to eat all I can). This time Ah Ming was earlier while cat was late, strange. Or maybe cause I force ah Ming to come earlier by saying if he comes late we will not bother to wait for him. We miss the dance performance cause Cat was late. Haha, then the choir was performing I did not want to face them cause I know that will make them start to laugh. Even I will also start to laugh and I have no idea why. After the performance has ended we all went to look for teachers. Chat with Miss Lim the longest cause she was our favorite teacher. She always treat us pizza when we are hungry during remedial, to say the truth, we own her a lot. She help us a lot in our A math and keep on encouraging us to no give up on that subject. She should be awarded the most motherly award in our school. We talk about asking her out for lunch or just a meal and at the same time have a small gathering but this time we will be treating her not the other way round. Most properly would be the last week of the June holidays. We would also be going ice skating but have not decided when. Haha, so many plans of the holidays already. Then we went to look for Mr Wong and chat and chat about crap I think. Mr Wong had a shock of his life cause now then he found how evil I am. Haha, this kind of things must show after you graduated from the school. But on the other hand, if they had found out earlier I wonder how fun class would be. After that we did not had enough eating, we went to had durian for supper. Serena treat us to the durian. Haha, I took the box with all the old one and they keep on laughing at how difficult it is for me to eat cause it what a bit hard and seems like rubber. Too bad Ah Ming never eat cause he dun like. The four of us seems like people with home but did not want to go home cause we were sitting by the streets and eating, a bit not what people will do nowadays. They ok not they, it was we were like getting high while eating supper and start saying jokes. I think we talk and laugh loudly, passerby must think we are crazy or something. After that all of went our separate way home. Accompanied Ah Ming to the bus stop and met Sze Xing at the bus stop, he told as that the principal was angry with them cause when they perform some of the stunts failed. Then again I felt that they did a even better job compared to the seniors that came back to perform.

Today when to enjoy myself also as one night is seriously not enough for me. Went to play bowling with Jamie, Dennis, cat, Ervin, fannie and Li Ping. Ask Ah Ming to come but got band so cannot make it. Met one SR friend, in the same PE group and in the same CCA but the sad thing was I did not know his name. Not my fault cause I had bad memory. After we went bowling we initially decide to go watch a movie but in the end cause the movie was too late so we went to Kbox. We went crazy over there, Jamie sad Boo then I went AHHH then Dennis was saying very scared then we were all laughing. Li ping had to leave earlier cause she had to work. We were singing mostly sad and love song (our divine plane). After Kbox we went to eat then Cat and Dennis went to play pool while the rest of us went home. On the way home me and Jamie was chatting about our divine plan. Secret so cannot say what is it. Hehe, going to end off here even though I feel so energetic. Wonder how is Vincent doing in his work.

Lazy

It has been a long long time since I blog. Haha. Too lazy to do it. Now is just because I am too bored. Well did not enjoy the last few weeks before the holidays because got so many test and homework. But as you all know me, not the type that ever bother to study and do my homework. In the end chem and econ got AO (fail) and math got F (even worst). Haha, reap what you sow. During the holidays have to work hard liao. :'(. But don't feel like doing anything now. Too lazy to move.
The past few nights have been talking on the phone and going out (holiday haven come yet I in holiday mood liao, hehe). Chat with lao gong and he was playing the piano for me to hear. Haha, cause both of us were too bored and had nothing to do. Friday went out with wen and cat to study, I finish one homework they still in the same topic. Wondering are they really studying. And wen and me keep on saying we are hungry. Cannot seem to fill my stomach. So we decided to go KFC to eat and then continue to study there, I think you all know what happen. Went there, eat then start chatting. Haha, no mood to study there. Then we start talking about school and it seems that all of our schools have .... don't feel like saying. Haha. What to do now? I think I should start to study. I think in the end I will stone at my table, Haha.

advertisment i saw near the lift... must be very little going... and look at the price...

in school... look fat liao...

HW HW

Haiz. I think my river of homework is starting to overflow. Not because I don't want to do, is because I don't know how to do. Haiz. Not thinking, I should have gone to poly and slack there. Envy my other friends that went to poly. How I wish I was one of them but since I came to JC and now is too late to change I better get into a U.
Today lao gong came to my house to do his PI cause his internet not working. Haha. In the end I think I keep on bothering him (don't know if he have all he need anot). Sian Sian Sian. How I wish singapore was like Japan, where the study

CHALET

Had fun but not enough sleep. Going to have my revenge on not having enough sleep but still don't know how. What we did in the chalet and who went? I am so not going to answer that question. Haha, too many things to type and those who went promise not to tell other people who went. All I can say is THERE IS A PAIR OF LOVE BIRDS. JUST LOOK AT SOMEONE'S BLOODY NICK AND AND YOU KNOW WHO LIAO. Haha, cannot control myself, just have to do that. Listening to Jeffrey Michael now, his piano rocks man. All the songs are, how to say, soothing. You should go and buy it. Had DISC today and learn about leadership. All of us have to draw a mouse and we were able to tell about ourself from the mouse, I have no idea how accurate the thing is. Then there was chem test and I did wrongly so blenco all away and redo, end result, not enough time to complete my test. Think I will fail all my test this term.
Just went to my lao gong's friendster and saw all his photo he took with his new class. He seems to happy. Maybe I should stop smsing him, what do you guys think? Some more my phone bill is increasing by a lot. Maybe the best choice is to stop smsing him. Since now we are in different school, different course, maybe we will never be together again.(don't 想歪) every time ask him go out always say he got too much homework to do. Maybe should not bother him liao ba. Anyway he also will not notice that I got or never sms him one since I am always the one who start smsing him. Haiz. I type here he also will not see it one. I wonder in the future. One day all of us might just brush shoulders with each other and not know it. Sad right? Not looking around you and just keep moving forward.
My mom and dad always tells me when I was young I always smile, maybe too cheerful. I also sell newspaper when I was small. Can't tell right? Well too poor liao. Haiz. Now on a save and save plan. Broke now. Maybe all the things I want to buy now should ask my bro to help me buy. And also because my 老公不要养我了.

Sleepy

Just make a quick blog before I go and sleep. Now a days I had been sleeping quite or rather very early of a JC student. Haha, just feel so tired when I go to school. How I wish it was like secondary school, where the teachers will come to use while we stay in the same class room, if it was like that, I would be able to take short naps in between lessons(I miss cat's pencil box as my pillow). Tired, had always been tired. Sorry, I know I am not make any sense to you, brain dead. Today went out with cat and Serena to have dinner (Clay pot rice, Clay pot rice) . Then went to jalan jalan and I bought nothing while cat and Serena bought durians to eat. How I wish I could go with them to cat's house to eat the durians. Have not been eating durian for like 2 years. So I reach home and started doing my homework, I was staring at my chemistry tutorial trying to make sense out of it but just could not get what the hell it is trying to tell me. So I gave up doing chemistry and prepare to get scolded tomorrow by Miss Cheng. I did not felt like doing any homework at all, maybe chemistry had drained my brain. So call Lao gong and started chatting rubbish, trying to ask him help me think how to do my econ and how much he wanted to change CCA but cannot cause he used CCA to get into the school. He envy me (muhaha) cause I still have time to meet up with cat they all. (See lah, don't want to stay in SR) Haha, have to pity him, have CCA everyday until 9 for past 2 weeks (excluding Wednesday), even Monday which was a holiday he also need to go back and every morning also need to reach school by 6.30 to practice. Well, good luck for tomorrow's SYF, you better get a gold or I will start scolding you stupid to join that CCA again. And your homework is piling up. SO GO DO YOUR HOMEWORK.

Family

Until now then I found out how much I love my family and how afraid I am when they are not around me. Well, I am crying in front of my computer again. Now I am the only one at home, you guys must be thinking I am very lucky right, I have a lot of freedom to do whatever I want? Well guess what, you are wrong. Have you ever tried coming home from school or work and you are the only one at home, it is like having a family just without the people. I hate this kind of life. My mom is in china, dad in Korea and bro in NS. The only people who are talking to me, helping me out of this pit of loneliness. Now I know why 人 this word is use 一撇一捺 supporting each other to write one.

Enough of my sadness at home. Now sadness in school. Had I made a right choice in going to JC? Well, went out with cat and ee wen today. Found out how much I envy them, how I wish I was there with them to see what is happening there. Maybe JC was the wrong choice for me. Well, I will know by the end of this year. If I do badly in my exams by the end of this year, I will be going to a poly. But come to think of it, I still haven choose what path to take. So, maybe JC is still better.
Speaking of JC, I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that I was able to go into NYJC but I was unhappy. Maybe that is my brain telling me to accept the fact that I am happy in SR and a change will make me unhappy. But come to think of it, all my dreams are weird. Well, most of it can tell me the future, you can say I have the gift of predictions. But it does not seem to be work properly now.
Well, I will end my blog here and here is a song called no man is a island.

No man is an island, no man stands alone
Each man's joy is joy to me
Each man's grief is my own
We need one another, so I will defend
Each man as my brother
Each man as my friend

No man is an island far out in the blue
We all look to One above
Who our strength doth renew
When I help my brother
Then I know that I plant the seeds
Of friendship that will never die
I saw the people gather
I heard the music start
The song that they were singing
Is ringing in my heart

No man is an island, no man stands alone
Each man's joy is joy to me
Each man's grief is my own
We need one another, so I will defend
Each man as my brother
Each man as my friend

STUPID TEACHER

I HATE MY ECON TUTOR. She suck in teaching us, like she is having mood swing all the time. When we cannot answer a question she like will keep on asking and asking and the only thing she will say is :" then what? After this happen what will happen next?" Is that suppose to be a hint? Or are we suppose to listen between your words. When got people looking at her teach she will teach us by explaining properly but when no one is there she will be like teaching u is hell to me, meaning very pissed with us. My class wanted to sign a petition to change teacher, I will suppose it. Haha, but if the teacher finds out we are all dead.

Ok, express finish my anger. Sorry for not bloging, had been busy lately and there will be a series of test coming, show I have to study hard. Wish me luck okay? On the other hand, The long week end is finally coming. WO HO. (A COO!!!) getting sick. Hope can get well soon so that I can enjoy my holidays. Wondering how are my other secondary friends doing. Not referring to the badminton gang. Haha, cause we usually gather once a week, maybe twice. Once to watch a movie the other to play badminton. You guys must be thinking this people are rich, every week watch one movie. To tell the truth, most of us are getting broke, haha. Starting on next week I have to cut down on my movies. Yesterday I was the only boy in my class. Sad right? Haha, one of them was sick the other was also sick but he came to school, then he went to basketball competition. Left me the only guy. Quite ok, the girls were trying to entertain me. Haha. In secondary school it was the other way round. On my way home I found out I was still alive, I am ALIVE, I SURVIVED. Haha, too drama liao. Today was late for school but lucky me, the teacher said today will not be counted. First time late yet not counted as first time. Strange right? In the morning my name was flying through the air. Everything was ZHEN ZHEN help me do this, ZHEN ZHEN help me do that. Haha, keep on having the impression I was still the class monitor. Econ lecture, my sit was F7, so we say we were the contestants of Miss Singapore or something like that. I of course was still counted as a girl cause of my name. Haha, that had been happening since, lets see, primary school I think. Today school ended quite late and most of my friend and me had our screw lose. You should know what I mean. We were doing or saying crazy things. As you can see, my screw still have not been tighten that is why I am not typing in any order. Can't be bothered to reorganize the thing. Ending here, still have a lot of homework to do. Sian, once again I apologize for not bloging for such a long time. And now for the monent I have long been waiting for, time for a cup of coffee.

Bad luck

Went bowling and had bad luck, I only spare once. Well, I walk under a ladder. Don't know when will it end. On Friday my econ teacher ask me question so I just told her the answer. She said wrong cause I did not tell her how did I get to the conclusion, next was a question on a curve to state the curve shift right or left. I was guessing which one was my right hand and which one was my left, guess wrongly. So got scolded again and she ask me to go back to revise my work. Then went out after school with Ervin they all saw my cousin. I think only Jamie saw her face. RJC one but with the ah lian look. Haha. She got 4 for her O's. Pro right? After that I went back to school for this parents night which totally suck. My mom fell asleep during the talk. The principle was also talking crap. Like the HODs in our school are all guys and the VP and P (which is herself) are the only ladies. I have no idea what does that link to our studies. After that was the subject tutor and parents meet. All of the ST were in the canteen and the people are suppose to find the ST. It got so messy that my mom got fed up and we just left our school. Now I don't even feel like going back. After I reach home I went out with Ervin they all again. They went to watch infection. No logic show but felt scared when I was watching the movie. Haha, quite rare, I recall when I was watching Ju-on I was laughing. Haha, I have no idea why. When we walk out of the cinema me and cat was cold like ice. I was shivering my way down the escalator. My legs was shaking cause and cat saw me say I was walking like I going to fall anything. Now it is sat, I was watching drama from morning to night. Haha. Wasted my day. Then I had bbq for dinner. So full. Lao gong doing HW so don't want to bother him. Tomorrow I going to do Chinese reading again. Now reading the words, still getting stuck and I too lazy to check the dictionary.

my dinner... Left overfood...

my ZEN... Hehe... But don't have many songs to put in...

Relax

A lot of people starting school this week. Refering to those in poly. Wonder how are things run in poly. Like how long is their breaks, do they have P.E and CCAs, so many things I want to know. Speaking of P.E, I took my height and weight this week and I am 162cm while my weight is 59kg (skinner liao). Yeah! Even thought I did not do much sports. (Feel like beating me up right?) Guess what, you think P.E in JC is just do fitness training and play games only then you are wrong. P.E now have theory, we have P.E lectures and I have no idea what are they going to teach there.
Next I am going to tell you how good is the memory of my PW lecturer. She went through 9 slides without even looking at the notes. Every thing was said through memory. And she could talk about PW for half an hour without even looking at the slides, she could even tell us what page of the notes she is at. She also talk in a very funny tone which made us not sleepy at all during the lecture. Chatting with my Lao Gong now, haha, he so ke lian, this week everyday got band. No mood to type. Debating with him now.

the prize possesion of my room... somewhere in there... even i don't know where isit...

cat's present is inside... dunno when will be meeting her...

the lecture notes i have to study... :'(... so thick.... not including my PW...

li ping buy for me one... jealous???

my jigsaw... mostof u have seen it liao...

my SR uniform... guess cbss one or SR one...

Picture day

Today lecture was so boring. I was so bored with my math lecture until I started smsing in the lecture theater. My friends tried to scare me by saying the teacher was behind. During English lecture my teacher was flashing the power point too fast that my hand started to cram after copying just one slide and she does not wait for you. She just continue. No one was listening to her anyway cause we were too busy copying the slides. Econ was with the loud voice teacher but this time he learned to control his volume so his award was he is able to use the mic. Half way during the lecture a chem student came in and quite unbelieveable the teacher ask the student to shoo. You know like small kid like that. Quite fun the econ teachers here in SR excluding the black one ( not trying to be racist, but her teaching method really suck. All she does was just reading from the notes, never eleborate.) Chem was not like last time, this thime was very stupid. We did all the tutorial question using the same method but it was still fun. We Today I took a lot of pictures at home. Hehe. Cause I see my blog very empty.

Annoying

Too tired to blog, when I reached home on Thursday it was like 9 plus then on Friday it was worst 11 plus.
On Thursday I went to bowling and decided to use it as my CCA because it is fun. Bowling rocks. The first game was quite good. I scored 120 plus, just remember it was between the 120 to 130 range. Then the rest of my game sucks. Did not even pass 100. My physical strength drop a lot. On my way home I bump into this CBSS student which I don’t even know and he started talking to me. I just keep on saying ya and when the conversation finished I still had no idea who the hell he is.
Went out with WJ, YZ, XJ and WM on Friday and watch the pacifier. Tip to everyone: prices movie tickets going up next month so watch more movies now. Feel like I am promoting kiasuisam. Then after that we went to food court to eat, WJ and me ate beef noodles, YZ and XJ shared one bowl of ban mian (I think it is called ban mian.) while WM just sat there watching us eat. Very poor thing hor. After that we went walk around J8 looking for a packet of sugar. Then went to KFC to eat again. Haha. We were talking about JCs then the pope and some other lame stuff. We went home at about reaching 11 and poor WM had to hold is hunger until he reach home.
I went on msn then 4E2 started to have conference and people started playing the sound effects and sending nudge to people. I am going to uninstall my msn 7 and msn plus. They continued to do the thing so I turn off my speaker and monitor and lied on my bed. Then I went to watch TV and when I came back they were still at it. Haha. Keep on sending the things very fun are? In the end I can’t be bothered to wait until they stop doing the sound effects so I just turn ff my com and went to sleep. Haha.

Tired

Econ is a social science concerned with the study of how people and society choose two allocate scarce resources which have alternative uses to provide for their unlimited wants. Haha. This was what I was memorizing after my first econ lecture. Econ was fun for me. The teachers gave us an example then force us to give her the result she wants. She said she will punish us if we dun give her the correct result. Then we talk about hand phones and she was an IT idiot. Haha. The lest functions for her will be heaven. Math 9233 was still very boring because of Mr. Ang my math teacher, the other teacher was so much better even though he had pronunciation sucks. Today also had GP lecture. The teacher was say bla bla bla and all of us were like do I look like I care? Tomorrow will be having a long day. Should I go for bowling? There is no dogma cause during April is the trail period for CCAs. Don’t feel like joining any CCA during JC. Too lazy. Let’s see, if tomorrow having math until 5.30, then I will not go for bowling. Reason being can’t be bothered. Haha. Hope that my chem. Make up lecture will be canceled then I could go for cbss sports day. Now my blog still can’t do spelling check. So I am typing in words then later copy and paste into the blog. Haha.
Today had enjoyed myself during badminton. We were all laughing and joking. Kill each other in the team for my group. Miss those care free days where we could play and play and not care about what other say or think. How I wish I could go back to the days where Ervin and Ong will quarrel when we just step into the class room after morning assembly. Then I will go to my table and sleep. Even when I know the teacher has step in but I still don’t care. Then you can see James walking across the room asking the badminton gang want to play badminton on that day cause we don’t want to let XXX (don’t feel like mentioning his name. It will spoil my blog if I do.) to know we will be playing that day. Then when Ervin finally come back to his sit he will kick Cat’s file which make a loud BOOM and I will always wake up cause it is useless to try and sleep. Then there was this project which we have to make things to sell and the group will go to my house and bake cookies to sell. It will be like 2 to 3 people baking while the rest play my PS2, after some time some will try to throw Lian down my flat and Ong will always be in the room watching anime. Miss those days, miss my table, miss the cookies, miss the noise, miss the teachers, and miss you guys.

Results?

Yeah my bro has come home from NS yesterday. Haha. Cause he was sick. Today I finally got my SR uniform. Yes. Tomorrow should be getting my PE ba.
Went for econ lecture today, it was very fun. The teacher gave us examples and force us to give her the result she wants if not she will punish us. Haha. Lame right? Which CT I was going to was suppose to be out today. Everyone was waiting “patiently” for the result to come out but the result was. You have to wait till tomorrow to find out. Haha. Cause I also don’t know the result and I waited till 4 plus some more. It was because of my lecture that I stay until 4 plus. Haha. Still keep on thinking of my secondary school friends. Last time conferences never tell me. Wo ho. My leg stinks like hell.
So happy tomorrow going to play badminton with Ervin they all. Wonder when they will be starting school. Now very pissed, cause asks someone question the person always don’t want to give me an answer. Always give me the answer see first. You should know who you are. So angry with you now.

Love can convert and bring peace

These were the last word of the pope.
Just came back from church from a mass for the pope. Well when the mass started I was almost going to cry. The reason is quite lame, because the choir sings until I want to jump down. Haha.
Enjoyed myself today in lecture. In chem. lecture the time pass so fast, one period felt like only 15 mins had pass and everyone was enjoying the lecture. Will be getting to know what class I will be in tomorrow. Wish me luck that I can get into my first choice of class. Tomorrow so many make up lectures to attend and so little time to revise my lecture notes. Really have to learn how to manage my time. And I still cannot change my blog web site back to English.

Fun

I am enjoying myself when my brother is at home. Excluding the spyware incident. Me and my bro seem to have a lot to talk about or rather a lot in common.
Haha. We talk about NS and say it was very unfair that the minster's son need not go through BMT and gets to be officer. So unfair right?
Memories will fade along with time and the only things that will remain are photos. Same with love. The feelings you have will fade with time and the only feeling left will be lonliness. True? I have no idea. Cause you can say i seldom have feeling. And james tan stop playing with your msn by changing your status.
Well had a very boring day. All I did was watch tv then play computer well not much games to play anyway. Nothing else I think.
Does anyone know how to set the blog back to english cause I cannot understand. And sorry for the spelling errors cause i can't check.

Bad boy

Haha. I pon swimming yesterday. Did not feel like going, so I waited for yu zhuang to finish her net ball then we waited for Wei Jun. And she really took her time going to SR. After Wei Jun came to SR we gave her a short tour of our school and she have to start comparing our school with hers. Our school not that rich lah. Later we went to J8 to have dinner. We ate in Yoshinoya and I felt that my money was cheated after eating that. Haha. Then we went shopping for someone's present I shall not say who. Haha. I still don't think the object we bought for the person will fit. Then Wei Jun's mom came and treated us to Swensen's. That was the first time I eat Swensen's. And the ice cream was too sweet. We were all like trying not to eat the ball of chocolate or what ever it was. Haha. But I have to say the fries was good. We also ate fried mushroom and Yu Zhuang said they fried the mushroom and I just being me had to say some crappy lame joke. Haha. And thank you auntie. We continue our present hunt for another person. Again I shall not tell who that person is but we haven bought for you cause we cannot decide what to buy. Haha. So the day ended by all of us going our separate ways. The. We are not living together. Still getting more lame. Haha. Well came home and wanted to go into msn but cannot. Thought it was my computer that has a problem so I tried my bro's com then my mom's com. All cannot. Thinking someone must be trying to hack into my internet. 我太天真了. Haha. Cause that will not happen. Then just nice Wei Ming save me from panicking. He told me his msn also have problem. Haha. In the end I lie on my bed thinking of something then guess what happen. A black out came. Yup. The next thing I knew it was morning already. Haha. I think you all know what the black out is right?
Today my bro coming back. So happy cause he will always go out and buy things for me. Haha. I wan to eat ice cream. The one at PS one where there is a 50% discount on Tuesday. Haha. Simsons starting soon. Later coming to blog about my boring Saturday. Haha.

JC life

It is SRJC for me. Went back to NY today. Strange thing was I did not quite like it now. Haha. I bet u all want to know the reason why right? Well it is because when I enter NY, I could see a lot of people from different good school. If I went in there I will die faster. Haha.
Went to watch miss congeniality 2 with Ervin, Catherine, Dennis and Wee Kiat just now. Great show with great friends. It was very funny. Then they deciding to watch house of fury next week. Well I don't think I will have the time go watch with you all cause of the school work I need to catch up. Maybe I will spend my next two weeks having intense study. Don't worry, I will remember to relax and enjoy myself too. Well, I am not trying to make my brain focus on nothing but study until I can catch up with the people who went for first 3 months JC. Then need to everyday revise school work. In JC what you can do tomorrow do it today not tomorrow. You will suffer if you have decided to leave things for tomorrow. I have chosen the JC life, I must make full use of it and get into a U if not then 2 years of my life is wasted. Haha. But I have decided what job to take when I grow up. I want to become a teacher. That means more early wake ups for me. Haha. Maybe I will chose another job in the future I also don't know. Well have to learn time mangement skills and most importantly mind of matter. Really hope I can learn that skill. Haha. Then maybe I can be as smart as those people in RJC. Haha. And if you want to huh I also cannot stop you. Just don't flood my tag bored with huhs.

Emotionally Unstable

Every time I think of the things we do in SR, it keeps on reminding me of the crazy things we always do in CBSS. Then before I know it I will start crying. I really hated myself for not cherishing the time I had in CBSS. So what if it was a lousy school. So what if it a school that no one knows about it. To me it was a school that I like. I miss the time we had there, the funny things we do in class, the time where Ervin they all was defiance to the teachers, when we start to copy homework in the morning cause we did not do or when we where doing it during accounts lesson. I miss the people there the most, my teachers, friends and the aunts who work at the shops there. If only I can control time i really want to relive my secondary school years.
Why I cannot go NY? Why Wei Ming can enter NY but I cannot? I really don't get it. Is god playing with me? WHY? Can god give me an answer NOW? I do not want to wait for time to slowly reveal everything. Cause I am unhappy with the results. I think my faith is dropping faster than time. There are also other things which I hated and after so many years i still don't know why had god given it to me. Top on the list are my family members not including my mother, father and brother. My aunts and uncles keep on saying bad things about me behind my back. You guys think I don't know but you are wrong. When me and my brothers were small we were given toys for Christmas present. But those toys were what their children play until spoil or don't want to play. I remember my brother keep on crying cause his toy plane was broken. They also ask their children to keep away from me cause my results were bad. I was only a small boy, even a small kid you all also want to bully is it? I remember my mom always cry because of me, because my results were bad she will get scolded by my grandmother. It is not my mom's fault that I get bad results. Can you all get the facts right before you all start scolding her? Every time I see my mom crying I always lock myself in the room and start crying cause I know it is my fault that she is crying. Then recently I told my aunt I was enjoying my 3 months of break. She send me home then before I leave her car she told me in a sarcastic way to enjoy my break. I really hate them. Every time their children score bad results they just say not as bad as Bernard can liao. I know I have bad results but do you have to say it out. I know you all hated me cause I enjoy more and don't suffer any exams stress, but do you have to with compare me? Why can't you compare with my better couSIN? This is the main reason I want to go to Malaysia to stay with the relatives from my mother's side. I also remember my father and mother wrote me a letter saying they are sorry for bringing me to Singapore. To tell the truth I was not suppose to be in the world. I was a child born earlier by if I recall 2-3 months. I was suppose to die but god made the doctors save me. Why did god save me? To make me suffer? A lot of question have been going through my head. The only times when i enjoyed myself was when I was in Malaysia and in secondary school. The rest of my life I hated it. Maybe the JC life will also be an enjoyment, I still don't know. Well after writing all my hatred I feel so much better. Guys when you read this I beg you all not to tell anyone. This is one of the reasons I did not tell much people about my blog. And yes, no more huhs.

SRJC

Well by the looks of it, I am staying in SRJC. Today is quite fun lah. Did lectures in SR. While listening to the math teacher teaching math 9233 i just found out that i had almost forgotten everything about A math. Haha, still can't believe I got a B3 for my A math. After that went for physics which was totally boring. I am not going to take physics in my combi. Well tomorrow going to chose my CCA, i should be taking swimming ba. But thinking of trying tennis. So confused now. What should i take? Badminton? So many CCAs to choose from. Too bad cannot take all. Unlike secondary school where you can just go for whatever CCA you want. Haiz. Still sad cause I could not get into NY. One more thing. I officially ban the word huh in the tag bored. Like that James cannot put anymore huh liao. Hehe. Going to sleep liao. Very tired from yesterday cause not enough sleep.

1 more hour

Can't believe I am saying this but I am getting use to SRJC. Haha. Although I still prefer NY. Well time is running short as i write this blog. Sounds as if I am typing a message before my death. Well maybe is because of the lectures that got me use to the school. Did not know I am the study type. Haha. Phone just rang. Reaction still the same. Well 1 more hour to go before I know the sad truth or maybe it is a happy one. Haha. I just hope can go into NYJC. Wondering How are my other friends doing. Are they enjoying their time now? All will be revealed to me tomorrow. Feel like ending here. Tonight then continue ba. Haha. No more brain juice.

Fear

To tell the truth, I had not have this feeling for a very long time. I feel so stupid, being covered in fear of not getting the call from NYJC telling you your appeal is successful. I think you all also find it stupid right? It is just a phone call, I don't know why I am getting so worked up about it. Someone please save me. Now I have a hard time sleeping but because of this i have found out something i had lost for a very long time. Internal peace. Well this feeling had been lost when I was young. Today i had just found it. I have not been praying properly since I was young. Well you know when you were young you will have short attention span. I am not that holy as i look k. Well today I decided to start praying all over again. Desperate you know. I think you all know what happen. Not so worked up now. But still will get nervous after a while. Well now thinking of giving up hope. Don't know when i started to become so negative. Maybe cause I went to SRJC. Well JC life could really change a person. My brother for example. I think I told some of you what happen. Not going to say it here in case he finds my blog. Haha. Well wish me luck k? Hope can go into NY. Maybe I will start chanting NYJC in my dreams. That's scary. Haha. Typing a blog sometimes makes me feel that I am chatting with myself. Guess I will end here. Good night to all those that are reading my blog today. And good morning to those that are reading it tomorrow morning. Last point I want to state. Wei ming pang se me... Haha. That's not it. This is the real one. Life does not always go where you want it to go. When changes come face and make use of it. Maybe life will be better than expected. Sounds familiar? It should be cause this is one of the oldest sayings there are. Not piracy cause no one copyright it yet. Haha. I am getting more and more lame.

1 out of 200+

That is my chance of getting into NYJC. And wei ming got in. Maybe he should not have told me he got the call. Feeling very depressed now. Well, the hope of getting into NYJC is getting slimmer n slimmer. I don't even think I have a chance of getting in. Should i continue hoping to get in or should I just give up here and accept my life as it is now? How I wish god can give me an answer through my dreams or something like that. Now every time the phone rings i would rush there to answer it wishing it was NYJC that called to say my appeal was successful. That is but a dream something which I know will not come through but still hope miracle will happen. How I wish the appeal to poly stops on the 30 march. Cause if i did not enter NYJC I would rather go into a poly and enjoy life there. Haha. Still can't get over the holidays. Will god test my patients by giving me the call only on the 29? That I am also not sure. Strangely i could not use my ability to predict the future on myself. Sad case right? I could only help my friends to tell them what bad things are going to happen to them. Haha, some sort of foul mouth I have. These few days I think I am getting crazier cause the patients is driving me nuts. But I still have to wait cause this is life and i know the ending will be an unfair one.

Memories

While the gang was enjoying our freedom for first 3 months we usually meet up to play badminton. We always laugh at James doing his funny actions like some funny moves, like vibrating 3 times before hitting the shuttlecock. Then James also pretended to be a caterpillar n moved around the court. There were also other moves like jumping like a monkey or moving like a crab, we always laugh at him cause it was so funny. He always have a lot of theory but in the end still lost to us. James I will tell u why u lost to us. You always try to hit every time and not let others hit. There was once we tried to learn his moves and we all ended up laughing till we cry n could not concentrate in playing but we really enjoyed ourselves that day. Maybe that was the last time James ever got interest in playing badminton. After that he slowly lost interest. What will happen to our badminton gang I am also not sure. Could be because we are not together anymore that cause him to lost his interest. Quite sad to see the great friendship we build up so fast slipping away at almost the same speed. Feels like heaven is playing with us. In the end is still the same line. If only I could turn back the hands of time. Well even when we don't meet up for badminton we still can go out to catch a movie or go shopping right? Provided all of u turn up. Remembering our secondary school life. Beating the table during sec 1 then in Mr Peh's lesson would be our toilet lesson cause we would have a lot of people going to toilet. Then sec 2 Ervin broke the fire alarm but in the end benedict got scolded. Haha. There would also be holes in our classrooms cause they were playing soccer in class. Then sec 3 and 4 was the time all of us was together. That was when all the crazy things. Well school is starting soon, lets try to meet up as much as we can before school start cause once it start, our holidays will be on different days with me the most number of holidays (yeah!!!). Haha, maybe u all will envy me cause of the number of holidays I have. But I know I will always envy all of u cause you all could have a chance of meeting each other in school and could enjoy your teenage life compared to me. Poor me. Looks like I write down every thing we went through with each other in case I ever forget about it. This time the entry should not be so sad liao right? Haha. Leave a tag cause my tag bored is so EMPTY. Not really empty but just leave a tag k?

Past present n future

First time having a blog... Well JC life is quite ok but I really envy my friends who went to poly. Start school later and end earlier but have lots of project work which I hate. How I wish all of us r still together in the same school n same class where we would do crazy thing 2gether like watching shows till the wee hours even though exams r just tml. Really wish chong boon have the program which we from secondary straight away go into JC. Then we would be doing those crazy thing we did in secondary. Jaime bel always take people's bag n start hiding the things inside, me n ong always start talking about anime. Then we have anti people group. I would also start cursing cat which really happens. Then me n Angie always sleep in class. During PE would b our stress relief period cause we would be whacking the ball with everything we got. Then we have the group which would always play badminton, even though we could play badminton in PE some of us would also go down to teck gee cc and book the court when all of us are free to play badminton. But now we can't do tat cause all of our holidays are on different days. Then we have the sc gang where all they will talk about is sc. I would be missing those days we have together. On my first day I did not quite like it but when I got to know the people there things start to get better. Started enjoying activities in SRJC but I still want to get into NYJC. But don't know if I go in now will I get to know the people there, will I prefer SRJC, could I even cope with JC life. My brother told me that I should have chosen poly life. Well after hearing what Ervin they all say maybe I should have gone into a poly. But it is too late now, there is nothing I can do. The only thing now is to study hard and enter a U. If only I could turn back the hands of time. Well, I have to say good bye to my social life. Maybe I could only meet u guys in msn. Would have less n less time to meet u guys. Really hope we could have more class gatherings but not too much until we get sian by seeing the faces of each other. I would like to thank the friends around me like Ervin Catherine Jamie Annabel James Trudy Fannie Ee Wen Amanda Jin Lian Constance Angie joanne Wei Jun Yu Zhuang Serena... arg... Too many to name all out. Well thank you all my friends for giving me such an enjoyable time in secondary school. I found out I did not make the wrong choice by going into chong boon. I will miss u guys.