Silence, a fatal poison.

I am lost. Feel like giving up but every time always think of some excuse why it is always silent.

I ask the 13 every time we give people advise and help them, but who should we turn to when we need help and advise. Yet if I was given advise would I take it.
Guess not. Every time I feel the only solution is the run. Although I know it is best to face the truth but somehow I can't do that. Yet is it really good to face the problem? The outcome may not be what we want which is why I choose to live in an illusion. Which explains why I always hide behind a mask. Not just one layer but many different layer. I guess everyone wears a mask. Wonder has anyone seen the me under the mask. Even my parents could not figure me out. The worst part is I think I forgot who I originally am.

If silent is all I can get from you, I guess that will be all I every want.
I know I am in the wrong.
And after this guess I will start running again.
Well small k, if you all going out. Don't call me. You know why.

回答

人真得很奇怪
我的一个朋友
有好几天没回复他
他就说我生他气
现在他一个月多没回复我
我因该可以说他生我气吧
他说他忙完了后会跟我说
我...
到那时候还是会回复他
反正只剩下两年半
希望剩下的时间不会浪费掉

二十一

虽然你不知道
我的二十一
我把它给了你
可是我希望你知道
你对我是多么的重要

归零

最近一直在帮朋友给补课
到最后还是被我其他朋友骂
因为每次教到自己很累

那些在担心我的你们放心
现在只在教三或四个人
他的
有点不想教他了
每次都听到人家说
他每次很骄傲

如果你们认识我
就该知道我三个最不喜欢的东西是什么

Tired

Apart from the super crazy nights I have. These few days have been teaching tuition. From morning to night. And this had help me figured out what I wish to have on my birthday. Time alone.

Dreams

You showed me the start of the road which I decided to walk.
But after a while the fear of uncertainty came in.
You have left me the choice of how I wish to walk this path.
But I fear that once the clock strike 12, will everything return back to where it start from?
And everything will disappear leaving nothing at all.

I talk to the rain

Everything is in place I guess.
Sorry yy have to make you do something for me. To tell the truth, is not I have no time. Rather is cause I don't feel like seeing that person? Can say he also don't want to see me. ( Unless I interpret wrongly the message of stop talking to me and leave me alone. ) And this also means don't call me out except if you want me to accompany you to run.
These few days the people I sms has gone down to 3. Which can be said as a good sign which I will explain later. The Queen (normal) Snowyball (normal) and muel (not normal xD)
To the 3 I have to thank you for enduring my weirdness, crappiness (THERE IS SUCH A WORD!) and annoyingness. To muel didn't expect you to reply most of the time but thanks for replying. At least I know there is always people I can turn to when I feel lonely.
Tomorrow my mom will be flying off again. Guess it will be just me and this house and sometimes my bro.
And here is the thing I need to explain to you all. I will be going after 3 years. Have been trying hard so spend more time with the people around me but since the outcome turn out to be like that. I guess I should just leave things as it is. Anyway not much people will notice, tired and tested.

To you. Since it is your wish for me to leave you alone. You will not see me, touch me, smell or hear me. You will not perceive me even if I stand before you. At least this I can promise you. You want you can delete me from your facebook friends and your msn like what you did with the rest even though it is by accident. If I as a friend (not that you regard me as one since I am under other contacts) cannot help you or lend you a listening ear when you need, then I am not considered as a friend but rather just a stranger.