不知怎么形容我现在的感觉

刚刚读了某人的blog. 其实我这外人什么都不该说，我只要跟他讲你还有我们。虽然我们不可以代替她的位子，可是我们至少可以在你伤心时和你一起走下这条路。 我觉得自己好丢脸，当天我还叫他跟我们出来玩。现在，不知道要怎样对他开口。只好写这blog希望你能看到。
这句话好不向我啊。其实人真得很奇怪，大家都希望在世上的东西可以是永远的。可是，如果人的东西是永远的我们还会懂得珍惜它吗？就像有些人想要追求永远的感情，如果感情是永远的我们就不是学去珍惜感情。我们不失去就不知道东西的重要性，就像我们辉难过才会知道快乐是什么。
人啊人，为什么你那么简单却那么难了解。

Busy

These few days keep on studying and I feel that it totally have no effect at all. School life sucks. These few days quite little thing happen, my master's birthday and vin's birthday, some one finally got together but I shall not talk about that cause later my master scold me for gossiping. Haha, wondering who my master is? Who on earth have suck great power over me? Hehe, don't want to say.
Well so many bad thing happen in my family, uncle has an affair, one aunt got stroke the other got cancer, and some idiot is cursing me. If I ever find the source of all these if they are not natural, the person will get hell from me.
Find it strange but what the hack, don't feel like continue to type anything, feel so sick as in I am really sick. So let me Knock myself out.
O ya, I finally solve the equation for why life is unfair. Keep on mind that scientist theory is everything came out from nothing (after so many year they finally believe in the book of genesis) and everything was in balance. Since what two things of opposite nature come together it will balance out. So this world have to be unfair and the fair world have to be keep far away from here as if fair and unfair comes together they will cancel each other out. (Imagine a world where nothing is fair or unfair) Nonsense theory but who would believe everything came out of nothing in the first place.

intelligence cannot be lost, can only be forgotten

Not my point but nevermind. And haha, just trying something fun with the links ma.
These few days life is got so wrong, exams results = fail everything, family out of sudden having a lot of problem and my weight is starting to go up and down as and when it likes. Today was meet the parents day so went to school with mom and my teachers found out what they are not suppose to know. Yup, they found out I did not study at home then they even got my mom's number to make sure I stop playing computer games. Speaking of games, these few days have been playing Chrono Cross again. Haha, this time was because of the character called Pip who have like 3 final forms and I only unlock 2 of them. Cute character but time consuming to train.
Lets see what else to add. Heard the news that Singapore was trying to find a national dish, the funny thing was their choice of option which are Satay, Laska and bla bla bla. All of them are a wrong choice of dish to represent Singapore mainly because they represent only one culture or one race. They should choose some food that was created in Singapore and also represent out multi culture nation. But I guess you all cannot be bother cause these things are seriously out of our hands.
Today was suppose to go out with Lian and my bro to swim but then yesterday Lian called say she cannot go. So in the end never go swimming so went to jog, haha wanted to lose weight. From start feel that I am running out of breath or someone was trying to choke me, at least better then last time where they were pulling my leg. Haha, funny time to go jogging right?
You know in chinese culture, I feel that 7th month is like the most important time. During CNY some families just don't care or seldom go family visiting all these but when it comes to 7th month, they sure will burn hell money even some catholics ask priest to come blesstheir house. Funny people,ghost more important than family r? I know there was this chinese saying 不怕一万，只怕万一 but there is no point to worry until like that what. Or they feel that spirits are more powerful than 天堑.
Well I guess have nothing to add just that should I change the name of the links? Haha I should change ba.

time can change you but you can't change time

This saturday anyone want to go out cause we thinking of going swimming, haha, then maybe we could go to Yo Chu Kang one and look for Mdm cho. Haha.
Yesterday went with Jamie to go support Joakim. Feel very bad (now that's a lie), was friends with Joakim for 10 years already but still never vote for him. Haha. Why not next time one of us do the voting then we just split the cost. Good right?
Haha. That day after I declare myself no clique, at night I went to chat with Vin and Lian and found that although in JC I only have a few friends but God have given me you guy in secondary school to make my life so much more enjoyable. There were even parts of me that I only show to you guys leh. Like my evil side which is not good, haha. Just want to say that some how we are more like family then friends.
And JC life not totally that bad, I have the bowling gang, Ah yong (she is going to kill me for calling her that), and the rest of the mugging gang.
Maybe the reason I ever went into CBSS is to meet with you guys, to meet the naggy yet fun teachers, the funky and very on people, the evil yet helpful people. O ya, lets go bake cookies again. Haha, miss the days we walk around the NTUC and buy things noisly. Then in my house we have the PS2 gang, anime gang, the reading comic gang, and the 3 people combi of the baking cookies gang. Those not in the 3 people combi is also part of the eat the cookies gang. Still love it when the whole class is one big clique.
P.S: Cat learn to care for yourself first before you start caring for others.

No clique

Yup I officially declare myself have no clique. Well already knew I have no clique, have some sort of sign that none of the groups wanted me. Sad case. So now I am officially friendless in JC, maybe it is a sign telling me I will get no where there. Hate JC life and will encourage my children not to go into a JC.
Bowling people rocks, no matter how down you are they will always cheer you up. They even gave me this funky Key chain. When ever I am sad my mom will always SMS me to bring my spirit up, haha. Don't know what I will do without her. Then there is Sam who will always bring me out of my boredom and there is cent who will still always scold me but still fun to be with. Den leh, haha always there to crap with Hendi then I just stare at them. Ting no matter how down I become, she always come and we become super lamers, it always snows after that.
Secondary school friends leh, don't know all go where le. Some busy with new friends others have forgotten my existence even though we were good friends before. I am one sad case. Lets see who is left in the close friends section. Lian, 弟, vin, cat... Erm no one le ba.
Haiz, this week had 2 days off to go out with them but then, all no time. Hao xun ah. Don't want to say le.

Cut off

Well, my teacher ask us to cut off out blogging all these. Nah, I don't think it will make a difference since I take such a long time to update my blog.
So many things happen this week. School has officially started and I have officially started DOING my tutorials. So those that want to buy 4D this is the week to buy. Why did I start doing my tutorials? Maybe is cause of my chemistry results that shocked me to start doing my tutorials. Tutors and adding extra lessons on our time table for the REST OF THE YEAR which means less time to go out with you guys. Even if they don't add I also don't think I have time to go out. Have to do tutorials, revision on top of that extra homework. Not that extra homework is bad but too much things can drive a person to madness you know. There was a think I was thinking about is how they define time after school. It is called free time, I know you are able to do whatever you want but if they give us so much homework they should just rename free time to extended school time. Even if it is free time I trust most of us would spent this time completing your tutorials all these ASSUMING you are a good boy. So we now declare free time to be called extended school time until you have completed your homework. (The we just makes it sound more grand)
Now to talk about how my social life sucks, well added someone on msn and I think the person is irritated by me so I have a feeling I have been blocked. Not his fault actually cause I do think I am irritating right? He also have been ka jiao by some bo liao people recently so can understand la. Well since I feel that I irritated him long enough, I did not bother to talk to him in school. (That did not sound right and I am childish aren't I) Again it makes no difference cause I seldom talk to him in school, I guess he just don't like to talk. (Well don't I like to assume things. Not my fault, Econ taught me that humans are very rational)
And now for my house life, normal, cooking dinner staying at home to help my mom do things for her work one like clinic work. Watching Will and Grace, listening to songs from 十二国记 which are just lots of weird songs, well I am weird. And last of all I am finally running. Haha. Well my house life sucks so when are we having the next majong session? My mom misses you guys. SHIT, just remembered my mom going overseas AGAIN. Well... SAM~~~ Haha, will be calling you to go out and makan and most important... STUDY!!!

Flung

Ya I flung my chem paper3 and is flung until like shit. Scored 18%. Guess what Ervin said. He say dota some more la then I was like diaoz. But the worst part is I don't feel anything. I am not worried or anything. Maybe there are too many things going on until I am sick of worrying. But one thing is for sure I am starting to do my tutorials.
The bbq for my bowling well in the end is like not I organise one but who cares. We ordered the food from bbq wholesale and they delivered to my house. Can you imagine 2 ppl carrying food for 30 ppl from AMK to Bishan? Lucky got Sam come help me if not I will not know what to do. After that I started the fire most of the things is I do one cause the rest either too lazy or dunno how to do. Even food also I cook one. Okay not only me la, Sam and Cent also help out and they help out a lot.
At first is Ting come help with the cooking then later she went to eat and never come back, lucky Cent was there to help me before she left. But one good thing is where Ting is sure very fun one cause she will be doing lame stuff. She even got a password before fanning the fire. Bet you all can't guess what the password was. Then every time I do something to the food Cent always scold me. When the food looks cook and they want to try if it is still raw Cent will always look at me and say: You think the food cook le ma? Which is translated to Ber eat and try if it is cooked. Bully me sia. One day must ask him teach me DOTA. Haha, I too lousy le.
Then me and Cent went to eat and the sad thing was no one was taking care of the food and fire at the pit. So both of us hurry up eat finish then go back cook food. Then Sam saw me very ke lian came to help me. Which make me feel like I was being over protected. Well after the bbq Sam was saying next time I alone can call him then go eat or study bla bla bla. 我不小了， 可以照顾我自己。Haha, but will call you if no one eating with me la. Then on our way back found out they guys know GH while I know GJ and GH. They were asking me who I think was more something since I know both of them. Well you all should know what the something is right? And my answer? Don't want to say. Haha.
Next day in school Ting went around saying Den they all, you all leave Ber to take all the food he very ke lian leh, lucky Sam went to help him. Haha, lucky I overheard which again makes me feel like I am over protected.
Well, ending my post here, actually is going to chiong tutorials. Haha, left with econs and chem to complete.

麻将

今天发生了很多事， 哈哈。我们跟石玲玲打麻将时最不可思议的事情发生了。石玲玲赢了很多场麻将加上她不在麻将上不是很厉害，应该是他交学费给我们的可是现在却反过来了。可能是因为我妈妈教她这样玩后她就开窍了。哈哈。 赢了钱他却感到很奇怪因为是从她学生们生上赢来的。早知道叫她把钱还给我们，哈哈。
说到麻将，我发现最近一直很想打麻将，不只是上瘾了还是子想跟他们在一起。说是上瘾也不是因为我要停的时候会停啊，想跟他们出去也不是因为现在每个星期我们都一起去做运动。到底是为什么呢？神啊请你告诉我吧。
在学校老师叫我举行bbq，这bbq造了很多问题给我，从来没发现举行这种东西会这么难。每个人都没有一个共同没事的时间，还我要东问西问，问到来还是没有一个时间可以举行bbq。好凡啊。
放假真不像放假，差不多每天都要回学校，加上下个星期老师要举行魔鬼训练班，真不懂不回来时是死还是活。我也不认为这班会有效果。第一，我不是不知道这么做那些考题而是我懒得把东西记起来，如果你把那些reactants和products都写给我，我每一题都会做。可能就是因为我不喜欢死背东西老师才叫我去魔鬼班来鄙我把东西死背下来。
现在用华文写字好容易啊， 只要打我要的自的萍英电脑就会自己找那最适合的字，方便吧。哈哈。虽然方便，我还是认为我不适合打华文字。不认为却大，我真是一个奇怪的人。读了我大的句子后，感到好像有一把菜刀把句子都砍到很多段，你读了应该也是则么觉得吧。
对了，下个星期一你们要去看戏吗？可能现在问已经太迟了吧，因为... 你们很少看我的blog了。哈哈，这也不可以怪你们啦，因为最近我真的好懒阿。

Last week of school coming up

Yup, school holidays are coming and I am so happy that finally can have a break from school. These few weeks have been sleeping late to play computer games and to complete my tutorials. So tired, some more have to plan on the bowling farewell chalet but have to days that chalet is free so should be change to bbq le. Yesterday have been call down for dragon boat and I really enjoyed it. Haha, fun leh. We row to a spot then jump into the sea water which is very very salty, then we climb back onto the boat and played viking which is to seed on the left and right of the boat and start shaking it until our butts are wet. Haha, in the end we have to scoop up all the water in the boat. After that we had to race with another group and WE WON, YEAH.
Next week when you guys free? Cause we really really very long never play badminton le.
Eh one day we should all go wild wild wet. Haha, I wan to get tan.
O ya, Keng Fai in dragon boat leh, I so shock when I saw him in that cca. Haha.

Results sucks

Yup my result sucks. My common test I failed one (MATH CAN YOU BELIEVE IT IS MATH) and the rest is pass at O level standard and fail at A level which is a fail also. Haiz. Have to start studying le. O ya, THXS MY WOMAN FOR READING MY BLOG. Haha, also my fault that no one comes to read la cause I very long never up date le.
In school now homework just keep coming and coming and holidays just keep going and going. SAD LA.
My chem teacher said that every time during tutorial I can do but during exams or test I cannot do, of course cannot la, during tutorial got one mind map to give all the reactions but during test or exam dun have, very big difference leh. Just like math, if you give me all the formulas I can do but without them I can don't take exam le. Speaking of math, my math teacher ask me why I fail math then I just told him I this kind don't do tutorial one you think can pass? Haha.
I think I have to visit the principle cause I fail my common test. Serves me right for not studying, although I did not study I am quite happy. Haha, cause now I have to thank my econs teacher, THANK YOU MR NEO. He help me a lot sia, from some one who sucks at writing econs essay to a better one. Cannot say I pro cause I am NOT. Ppl from my class get that in your head, I am not smart. Adele is the smart one. Me leh stupid one. Haha. But can see every one knows that Adele is smart, now everything is ask Adele. Haha, no more people bugging me during tutorials so I can continue my stoning.
So guys how is poly life now? Fun? Cause I know some one like some one le (confusing eh) then JL switch bf liao ( now is in the country one) Enen is now into dota my bro leh having lessons all the way to 6 (cannot take it must sms ur sis wo help u relieve stress, haha) miss my evil partner ( when wan to go out?) Then still got my 3 daughters don't know how are they now. Cat leh, not sure haha, some how feel got distance le.
Once again THANK YOU PING MY WOMAN.

After reading what I type I feel that some how the school part, don't sound like me but what the hack. PUBLISH.

忙

哈哈.达击败年没写东东了(反正也很少人读这blog). 这次想涌华文来写.
这几月发生的事虽然不多,可是他们却使我手累的要命. 第一爸爸回来了. 今天又是爸爸的生日. 父母们在生日的时候还必须做平常做的家务. 哈哈, 我们做孩子的还真幸福啊.
最近的功课也越来越多. 不要在给我功课了啊.
特别是我的 GP 老师, 再班上没人喜欢她. 她给我们功课可是她只改其中的几个. 可能在十个里面只改两个. 做老师也不用做到这么懒吧. 虽然语文可以说是很难改, 可是为什么我的华文功课却改的那么快. 望了跟你们说, 我华文及格了. 恭喜我. YEAH!!! 现在我最喜欢的课目和老师还是化学(chem). 哈哈, 你们都知道在班上我化学可以说是满好的(脸皮还真厚). 在班上还是照样的不听课也不做功课. 不做功课还比较好, 上课时会抄老师的答案. 可是我一做功课时, 上课时就不专心, 哈哈. 可以说老师也知道我没专心, 所以她一抓到我不在听课是就会叫我回答问题. 最好笑的是我知道答案是什么. 哈哈, 老师就没办法叫我听课.
现在的我好想念你们啊, 猫生日时要不要出去呢? 上次你们一起去 chalet 是我没去. 好伤心啊. James 你在玩什么游戏?

Dragons suffer at the year of dog...

Yup, I guess I was quite busy. Haha. Have to complete all my holiday home work. The worst part was I complete my Chem but on the day which needs to hand in, I only brought the last 2 pages of the work. Some one must be cursing me. Next is econs, I did the question but cause I did not read the instructions I only did one part, the teacher saw it and scolded me. The only good thing is I still go out with my secondary school friends, some how I still don't think I can get along with my JC friends as well as my sec friends. Maybe is cause my secondary school is small. Or maybe is just because I cannot desert my duties as a moniter. Haha. Even though we lost contact I am still the one that brings them together like badminton gang, go back school to play, chalet (3 times last year I think) or just chat with teachers and going out. We actually got quite sick of each other cause we went out too many times. Haha. Until now we have no idea where to go. One more good thing is I going to change handphone. But the thing is the one I want is very expansive. Sob Sob. And they only have prompotion until 31 Jan which is the last day of my plan. So now I shall dive back into my books. Haha. Starting to hate my econs teacher. HE IS INHUMAN. Wonder any of my JC friends read this blog.

Sunday... (that was yesterday)

Sunday. Went to church in the morning and heard something very interesting. A story about a married couple. Before marriage Catholics have to go through this session with the priest. If the couple getting married is one non-catholic, they will say that the catholic cannot change religion and if best the children have to get baptise. So before marriage the husband everything also okey. When they were having their first child the husband said if it is a girl then she can go get baptise but if it is a boy he have to be like him. The wife was very sad when she heard it. Even when she reminded him about what he said to the priest he still did not change his mind. So she went to novena to tell our mother about it as she wanted all her children to get baptise. So the first child was a girl. After that they had another girl and followed by another girl. The fourth child was also a girl. Until one day the husband ask why they always get a girl, so the wife told him about what she did and they will not get a boy unless he allows him to get baptise. So the father allow the baptise thing and the next child was a boy.

Freeky story. Haha. Now to continue chiong HW

HWHWHW

Now is the time to CHOING R. Zzz. Doing HW now and found out I do not understand a thing about chem and P and C. P and C leh, the most easy topic in A math I think. The good thing is I finally decided to go cut down weight. Haha. Too fat le.

for tag bored

And if they do not ask her they will ask me cause I always in the same map as them or I am always with them. (do you even noe what this means). If i say no they will start saying sure anot? they always together leh. bla bla bla. Then some people might say to stop these people to stop asking you, ask them to ask her lah. This equals same result. I am like being force into this thing just because ong wants me to heal her character so she no need to waste so much mesos.
Then what you want me to do? quit maple r? I not like you got stead in singapore cannot always go out. Then you say go out with ervin they all but they always maple. Study? Since when do you see me study.

tired

Ya I am dame tired. These few days keep on accompany my cousins go out.

The morning ritual
Every morning we will just sit in front of the tv and decay. We watch fruit basket or FMA sometimes even some english movies even though their english suck and I need to find shows with chinese sub.

The bloody sun.(afternoon)
Actually I have no idea what we usually do in the afternoon. Sometimes we go to the park sometimes continue to decay. And finally we go to walk walk and buy more vcds to watch.

The night cat.
At night we will go party or maybe go out play pool. Went to orchard at 25 dec. There was some sort of celebration there so it was really pack. There was also flower cars (is that what you call them?) and many display but not as good as last time. So we walk and walk until all of us start to fall apart. Wanted to take the underpass to the MRT but it was close. Miss by a few mins. So we have to walk there, walk and walk and saw a underpass. I went up to the policeman and ask him can this lead us to the MRT he said can. So we went through the underpass and when we came out, we cross the road. Zzz. So we walk back to our starting place and this time we walk to the MRT.
At the mrt I told them if get separated meet at AMK. My cousin complain that I was saying until she will be the one separated. Then when the MRT came it was fully pack and we keep on trying to find a door that was empty. Found one and all of us rush in but in the end my cousin did not make it. So saying to her was the right thing to do.

Zzz

No mood to do anything. Don't feel like doing my homework nor maple. Haiz. What should I do?
Now I can 100% confirm they everyday talk on phone, don't believe me? Can call and try. All of us wondering when the hell will they get together.
So what happen these few days.
Monday went to bring some one I don't know to tour Singapore. The best part is when how to fetch the person from the airport.
Tuesday went to play badminton and nothing much
Today went out with my mom after her long trip to China. When we went out for lunch I found something very extraordinary. One of the lady working at the coffee shop is collecting empty can not for herself but for her neighbour. What is so extraordinary when this can be seen everyday at the old folks home? Well it is simply because she works in a coffee shop. All of you know this kind of job is low paying (bla bla bla), the fact that she cares more about the people around her compared to herself is special.
And I can some how say I stop maple liao.

Awake

Yup I am awake but still feeling a bit strange. Actually I just woke up to watch TV cause of the comedy shows. Haha. Haiz, now a new person got BF so planning to play badminton even more harder. You all purposely one right? Want to make life hard for me. Maybe I should quit the organising committee which consist of only one person, me plus James who sometimes try to help me. For once why not you all try to plan when to play badminton.
O ya, I have a problem which need you all to help me solve.
Online one day you ask who wants to watch a movie then your friends give you their reply. Then the day before the movie one of them feeling not well however it was not the sick person(A) who told you about it, someone else told you(By the way the person is just someone close to A) . Further more (A) did not know you know that he/she is sick.(Confusing right?) So if on that day of the movie, (A) still did not tell you that he/she is sick. Is that person at fault or that person has done nothing wrong.
One last thing, I am so not talking to that ass, he made me feel like vomiting blood by the way he reply.

not feeling well

Reason being I just went for morning jog. Now got headach but the thing is I only run for 3.5 rounds. My eardrums also hurt like hell. PAIN.
O yes, someone going to go on stead le(finally). The person you all know one, is the ass and da. Haha, those blur le just guess, very easy one.
Now going to go to sleep. Miss my bed.

Missing

Haiz. When will be the time when everyone in badminton gang can go for badminton together and not some missing. The effect of one person not being there is quite big actually. Like Jamie is the one who always makes us laugh with what she says while Ervin is the one who kills people with the shuttercock. James will be there doing actions while most of us try to mimic them. As for me, I will be the one running around hitting the shuttercock. Haha. When Jamie does not come the court will sometimes be silent, when ervin does not come some of us may feel uneasy as there are no shuttercocks to avoid.
Now some of them are going out with their new clicks like cat always go out with her nursing friends and Jamie is busy with her CCA. Ong leh, haiz don't say le. Anyway the whole badminton gang knows it. Haha.
So could the gang be falling apart?(Must be due to most of us playing Maple :P) Haha.