下一步该往哪里

Finally coming back here.

2011-10-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I typed in this blog.

Currently in year 3 of poly. Next sem is my final sem!

You know among all the years this would be the worst year I had. Reasons all those close to me would know. Haha. Sometimes I find it real stupid of me just looking at my handphone type out a message then remember I can't send it out to you. Haha. You know it was because of you that I actually went to study like really mug for some subjects so that I could help you in it? It was also cause of you that I found short cuts in where to walk and where to find free parking around your area. Haha. You know the bike helmat when I use to ride your bike was still at home till recently my mum throw it away. Haha. Yeah, I really miss those days you were around.

3.75

2010-03-28T23:49:00.003+08:00

Yeah I got my result. Overall for first year is 3.75 was hopping to get higher. Haha, think a lot of people will kill me when they see this.

Been quite busy nuaing during the holidays and finally decided to do a bit of weeding.

School has been pretty havoc. Yes know what you guys will say, I have become party animal. Have been cutting down okay. School work still easy so my own assignment I have given myself was to teach people. Haha and I so know what you people will be saying again, YOU CRAZY IDIOT STOP GIVING FREE TUITION, bla bla bla (I like that song). It is not like they do now give me anything in return, the people I usually teach always give me rides home sometimes to school or supper.

These few days was so bored that I went back to school with Ervin. Did take a few pictures of those faces printed on the wall except mine. Wahaha, those whose face are there (Jamie, Cat, Ong, Leong, Jin Lian, Nelson, Serene, Archiraya, Wang Yan) prepare to see them on facebook one of these days. Think I going to upload it now. Wahaha.

Think I shall end here with a post of my results this sem.
4 Dist, 2 A, 1 B+, and my elective got D+ spoil the whole thing but what the hack, not counted in GPA. Haha.

自闭

2010-02-27T12:45:00.005+08:00

好久没来这了
最近真的好忙，忙着教书
后来又在想为什么要帮他们
听到他们所说的话
觉得做的每件事都在白费力气
开始是因为他我才开始教的
最后那些话却是他讲的

你
真不知道你在生我气还是什么
每次都不回答我
九月一号
到了那天你不回答
你就没有机会了吧
还是一样小k你们聚会不要叫我

Silence, a fatal poison.

2009-09-30T19:22:00.005+08:00

I am lost. Feel like giving up but every time always think of some excuse why it is always silent.

I ask the 13 every time we give people advise and help them, but who should we turn to when we need help and advise. Yet if I was given advise would I take it.
Guess not. Every time I feel the only solution is the run. Although I know it is best to face the truth but somehow I can't do that. Yet is it really good to face the problem? The outcome may not be what we want which is why I choose to live in an illusion. Which explains why I always hide behind a mask. Not just one layer but many different layer. I guess everyone wears a mask. Wonder has anyone seen the me under the mask. Even my parents could not figure me out. The worst part is I think I forgot who I originally am.

If silent is all I can get from you, I guess that will be all I every want.
I know I am in the wrong.
And after this guess I will start running again.
Well small k, if you all going out. Don't call me. You know why.

回答

2009-09-08T18:01:00.002+08:00

人真得很奇怪
我的一个朋友
有好几天没回复他
他就说我生他气
现在他一个月多没回复我
我因该可以说他生我气吧
他说他忙完了后会跟我说
我...
到那时候还是会回复他
反正只剩下两年半
希望剩下的时间不会浪费掉

二十一

2009-08-21T21:13:00.002+08:00

虽然你不知道
我的二十一
我把它给了你
可是我希望你知道
你对我是多么的重要

归零

2009-07-19T12:03:00.002+08:00

最近一直在帮朋友给补课
到最后还是被我其他朋友骂
因为每次教到自己很累

那些在担心我的你们放心
现在只在教三或四个人
他的
有点不想教他了
每次都听到人家说
他每次很骄傲

如果你们认识我
就该知道我三个最不喜欢的东西是什么

Tired

2009-06-27T10:43:00.002+08:00

Apart from the super crazy nights I have. These few days have been teaching tuition. From morning to night. And this had help me figured out what I wish to have on my birthday. Time alone.

Dreams

2009-06-14T21:35:00.003+08:00

You showed me the start of the road which I decided to walk.
But after a while the fear of uncertainty came in.
You have left me the choice of how I wish to walk this path.
But I fear that once the clock strike 12, will everything return back to where it start from?
And everything will disappear leaving nothing at all.

I talk to the rain

2009-05-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

Everything is in place I guess.
Sorry yy have to make you do something for me. To tell the truth, is not I have no time. Rather is cause I don't feel like seeing that person? Can say he also don't want to see me. ( Unless I interpret wrongly the message of stop talking to me and leave me alone. ) And this also means don't call me out except if you want me to accompany you to run.
These few days the people I sms has gone down to 3. Which can be said as a good sign which I will explain later. The Queen (normal) Snowyball (normal) and muel (not normal xD)
To the 3 I have to thank you for enduring my weirdness, crappiness (THERE IS SUCH A WORD!) and annoyingness. To muel didn't expect you to reply most of the time but thanks for replying. At least I know there is always people I can turn to when I feel lonely.
Tomorrow my mom will be flying off again. Guess it will be just me and this house and sometimes my bro.
And here is the thing I need to explain to you all. I will be going after 3 years. Have been trying hard so spend more time with the people around me but since the outcome turn out to be like that. I guess I should just leave things as it is. Anyway not much people will notice, tired and tested.

To you. Since it is your wish for me to leave you alone. You will not see me, touch me, smell or hear me. You will not perceive me even if I stand before you. At least this I can promise you. You want you can delete me from your facebook friends and your msn like what you did with the rest even though it is by accident. If I as a friend (not that you regard me as one since I am under other contacts) cannot help you or lend you a listening ear when you need, then I am not considered as a friend but rather just a stranger.

To you xin yu

2009-05-11T20:18:00.003+08:00

If you think the post before was referring to you IT IS NOT!
Serious. The start was only an example for the tissue and mirror logic.
You are one of the 2 who have accompany me a lot a lot of times.
So to you. You have help me a lot of times, now it is my turn. Can tell me what happen ma?
Why you change your msn message until like that?

Ignored

2009-05-09T19:59:00.005+08:00

Did you ever had a friend that wants something from you and could not find you online. So he will call your hand phone. First he will talk to you about totally random things like why you did not come online all these and finally he will ask from you the favor. After he has done asking and you said okay all those he will just say bye then put down the phone. Then when you think about it. Did he really called to ask about how you are or did he call to ask if you can help him.

After aimlessly walking for 2 hours plus. I have decided to do this. I know by doing this, I might lose quite a number of friends.

Some of my friends keep on saying I am smart, guess what, I am not smart. If I am I would not have ended up where I am now. If you guys are wondering what happen in between? I shall tell you. I was from a JC and cause my results are not that good to enter a university I am now studying in a SP.

Many people have said that I am born in a blessed family. Yet how many know what does it feel like to be here.
You know every time when you go home it is usually a habit to shout to your parents that you are back. For me, that is not the case cause I know usually no one is at home. Dad is working overseas, mom usually go overseas and my brother staying in hostel. You may think so much freedom I have but have you thought of how lonely it is to every time come home to a empty house. Furthermore it has been 8 years. For 8 years I see my mom 3 to 4 months then she goes overseas for about 1 month. For 8 years I usually only see my brother during the weekends if not he does not even come home. For 8 years I have been seeing my dad only 6 weeks each year. You may say technology is so advance now that you can talk on msn all those but you think technology can replace human to human contact?

So you know what does it feel to be lonely? Guess not, if you did I would not have become like that. Many times I try to talk to people or ask them out all those and the reply they give me is busy or lazy. Some made empty promises, some forgot and others did not even bother to reply me. It is like you reach out and the whole world rejects your entire being. So to that world, behold your creation. I don't think I ever want to go for anymore gathering when all they usually do is talk among themselves about things that I understand but they do not want to include me in the conversation so I am just like being ignored and left at one corner. They all make me feel like if I went to the toilet and come back all of them would have left without me cause they had forgotten I went out with them. What for do I want to waste my time and money to go out when I can enjoy that at the comfort of my home.

沉默

2009-05-05T21:28:00.008+08:00

镜小时候就开始模仿别人
可是慢慢的他开始忘了自我
神看到了很生气
他惩罚镜
给了他一个世界
一个他必须每份每秒的模仿人

镜每天都在找
每天都在喊
设法离开这冷酷的地方
可是看到的人一句话也不说
因为他们的眼睛
他们的耳朵
和他们的脑海里只有一个字
我

后来镜也累了
但不管他有多累
他还是必须帮在对面的人
希望那人能救他
把他从这世界拉出来
可是那些人一用完
就会到自己的世界
回头看他一眼也没有

到最后
镜的声音也没了
他也放弃和另一个世界的人求救
因为他们的世界不能容纳多一个人
镜只能希望
有人会回头看他
回答他

逆风 (有空去听)

2009-04-29T20:18:00.003+08:00

你让我看到了人的一面
每次当我
听他们的烦恼
安慰他人，帮助他人
你说我会安慰到自己
帮到自己

当要找人讲话时
他们就讲忙
从早忙到晚
每一分每一秒
有人对我说
当要找人讲话时
可以发个简讯，他一定会回答我的
到最后我看是不会了吧
每次都觉得好像被利用后
就被丢在一边

对了ZH
很想接受这世界
可是这世界拒绝了我
因此我害怕这世界
避开它

Silence

2009-03-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

Guess I better stop talking to you.
Two actually.

One sometimes reply like quite pissed.
Actually not sometimes should be most?
Haha. Actually could tell that you don't really want to chat.
I know I am a kid and usually quite annoying to you.
Better stop before it get worst.

To the other I think I bother you too much that you have to stay up whole night to play your game.
Although you told me it is not my fault but I still think it is.
Haha. After hearing you complaining about me.
Guess I should stop chatting with you so that you will be able to play you game in peace.

Well better stop going online. Must control. Haha.
Well snowyball you should know how to "summon" me out. Haha.

Ignored

2009-03-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

Getting a bit pissed.
But you did warn me before I added you in msn.
So guess it is my fault? Haha.

Have no idea what is the use of msn now cause everytime go online look for people to talk to they usually don't reply. Think seriously going to make it to 18 soon.

Guess what my bro say is true. I don't have much 人缘.

Right and wrong are just words, what matters is what you have done.

2009-03-12T23:33:00.003+08:00

Well going to make this a short one.

First things first. Don't step on my tail. If you do, you will of course die.
Actually no. I will hate you but still talk to you and give you sarcastic replies.
You will only have 2 choices yes or no.
So you think I will change the date because you cannot make it? Well guess again.
For your: "What have you got to say note / A note to me by YOUUU " in facebook. I will post a funny version yet I mean it.
FYI, currently only the queen has seen the version and no I dun mean it to the queen.
It is just the evil things we do.
And no Snowyball I do not hate you although I always reply you weird sarcasm. Just like to suan you. Haha. I am evil remember that ALWAYS.

After hearing what my friends keep on advising me. About those group of friends are so not worth my time. I guess you are right and I have decided to let go.

P.S: If you guys are looking for me, you know where to find me. Eh all of the 17 should know. Haha.

Here we go again

2009-03-02T23:47:00.004+08:00

This is the amount of paper I photocopied in like 2 days not including the books I made. So the total number of paper I photocopied is like 8000 reaching 9000? O ya, the stack of paper on the right is also included in the stack. Haha.

Well today was a freeking weird day.
Miss the company bus cause I eaten breakfast with my friend and forgot all about the time.
Then Wei Quan fetch me to YCK hoping can still catch the bus but sadly can't.
So I had to take taxi and the whole trip cost $33.50.
Had to dig out all the money in my wallet so was left with 5cents for the day.
On my way there I saw my company bus and I feel so like asking the uncle to let me drop there.

At work I discovered a horrible thing.
What I task them to do all was not done.
They were suppose to pass one bag of food to muel in turn out they went to open it and eat it while passing a few of it to him. Freeking pissed cause there is a reason why I separated the food is so that you all don't finish it or so that all of you have a equal share.
Inside the bag also has the basic driving theory and advance theory book also suppose to pass to muel.
In the end what happen? They tell me it is somewhere in the office. LOST!
I became totally speechless. Have not seen such irresponsible people in my life.

I can't bring myself to be angry with them. Have no idea why.
I think I am too good to people that they all take things for granted.

镜

2009-02-24T21:37:00.005+08:00

一面镜子
看起来是靠近
却是远
两个世界不会相差
只是静静的看

想进入对方的世界
是不可能的
因为这只会制造伤害
再多尽力也只会制造破坏
最后镜子就会被损坏

有些想补救可是我
我不想再进入他人的世界
我只想静静的看
周围的镜子的破坏
给的伤害已经把我损坏

For big star and the queen or any of the 17
5 months. Let me slumber for 5months.

lost

2009-02-18T22:48:00.009+08:00

These few days super lousy.
Everything is so not going my way.

Ya can call it karma.
Karma from what?
From listening to people's problems, helping my trainees in any way I can so that they will enjoy being in armour, being one of the most on and up instructor and help everyone in my department and what else? O ya, organising gathering.

What I get in return?
People do not wan to come for the gathering, gathering cancel one way or another, people forget they are suppose to meet me, failing to get into a uni, failing in my driving test, want to borrow a listening ear but who ever wants to listen, I can seriously delete all my msn contacts and leave like 18 left, I don't even think many remember I have a blog, people don't even acknowledge the things I do.
It was like during one of the passing out parade. I was the decoration 2IC and the decoration IC have to go for some course and everything was thrown to me. Then everything like adjusting the lights all these also ask me to do the reason they give was cause I use to climbing up and down the ladder le. Then after the whole thing there is a debrief and there were like saying decoration got anything to say? O, decoration IC not here so skip. And when the decorations got problem like have holes and all those, I have to pay with my own money. Even when I told the higher up about the problem they were like noted and forgotten. Nice way to work.

Once someone said: How can I give you a gift when you already have so many.
I actually thought it was quite meaning full. Now I find it a whole lot of crap.

O ya, if you are wonder who the 18 are they are?
THE QUEEN! BIG STAR! Bear/Monk/Wicket. Ah Ong. Ah Ma and Ah Mah
KS. ZH. PY. YY. Ah LOO. JW. W'an. WALTON TON. "Pilot" aka walton oso. Flabby. Muel.
Snowyball

You know what,
You won, I lost.
Happy to see me in such a sad state right?
I should just F off from the world.
No diff, my existence is already slowly slipping away.

闭

2009-02-06T22:04:00.002+08:00

周围的墙开始慢慢造起
打开的窗也慢慢闭上
门已经关起
铮也慢慢的从脑海中消失了

周围一片黑暗
脑海一直混乱
接下来
就看你怎么走了

结束了

2009-01-31T23:43:00.002+08:00

最后一个聚会已经结束了
我再也不会举办多一个了

因该早就看到你再跟我讲不要再举办了
从那时叫SOA的朋友
加上这次中学朋友
我放弃了
只想聚一聚都这么难
最气的是那两个叫我叫多一点人的却没来
如果你们不要来就不要叫我叫整班
不要跟我说这么少人
因为我只想跟几个要好的朋友聚德

重开始的十五个说可以
到最后只有九个
大多数都是最后一分在跟我说的
有一个我打给她时才说不来了
那些有理由得我不怪你们
最气的是一个叫lin的
说他害臊不想去

还有一个从SOA的
那时说不可以因为那天有朋友生日
好我就改去星期日
到了大家跟我说
他们星期日不可以,我们改到以后吧
他又跟我说星期六可以

下个礼拜六是他二十一岁生日
我也很不想去
你要说我小孩子气或什么都好
我也不想去管的

烦也烦够了
管也管够了
我累了
那些我再气的
我还在气

你

2009-01-21T21:57:00.003+08:00

闭上双眼
关了双耳
不用管他人怎么想
不用管他人怎么看
你是你

人

2009-01-20T21:06:00.002+08:00

最近好忙啊
从外国回来的时候
第一件事知道的是表姐进了医院
最担心的是因为她是马来西亚人
和她的病是脑癌
大家都轮流去医院探望她

买了一些东西想给在兵营了的朋友
可是叫他们来跟我拿好像很麻烦
最后想还是叫我中学朋友帮我带进去
回想还是中学的朋友最好
不是因为他们随传随到
是因为他们愿意听愿意帮

每次翻开报子
就一直看到战阵
就得很可笑
他们给他们做东西的理由
是因为他们要保护他们信仰的兄妹
你们去保护他们
那他们又有谁去保护呢
就因为他们所信得跟你们所信的不同
你就认为他们因该死
每天打打杀杀的
你们不会觉得烦吗？

战阵已经死了够多人了
你们还到处去伤害犹太人
你们是不是很希望由第三个世界大战
难道你们就想不出其他根好的方法让被人注意到你们的想法吗？

Welcome back old life

2008-12-14T21:41:00.002+08:00

Time to switch back to the old me. Haha. Well the usual sleep at 6 or 8 in the morning then wake up at 2 in the afternoon then nua all the way till 12 midnight then go out again. Haha. I don't look like those kind right?

Well 2 year in NS was very fruitful. Training new specialist out and seeing how they work in unit and in turn learn from them. Weird cycle. Haha. The last few days in camp was very sad. Trying to spend more time with the people I know cause it would be very hard to go out and all these stuff. But in the end feel it was wasted. Could not spend much time with my ex-trainees, the OOCs of STW and the people who help me when I was in STW. Wanted to have a meal with someone but he was always busy with his MOB and stuff. Haiz. Well 没缘分. Could not even pass something I made for him directly. Kind of sad isn't it.

Last day : slept at 2a.m. making all those stuff and woke up at 530 like that to take the trainees for breakfast for the last time. Haha. Was quite touch by them. Even though we only knew each other for like 2 weeks but they were always such a cheerful bunch. That day they go around shouting ORD lo and were making my last day a very enjoying day for me. Though we only know each other for 2 weeks, I think I will miss them. Haha.

Well, think I will end here. Hope to see you guys out in the streets if there is a chance.

希望

2008-11-13T21:43:00.005+08:00

走的时间日子都已经选好了
好希望在走之前
他不会再到讨厌我
在走之前他能够回答我
能够留下一个回忆

送外卖

2008-11-07T23:30:00.004+08:00

每次回去都会打给他
问他需不需要我买些东西
都不知道他是怎样看我的
只是一个送外卖的吗？

很想认为不是
可是...
每次和他讲话,问他东西
他看起来很不想回答
送剪训
只有问他要吃什么他才会回答
是我想太多了吗？

就结束吧

2008-10-31T19:53:00.006+08:00

觉得要做他朋友好难啊
他对我好像对一个陌生人一样
跟他说话他听不到因为我不是A
就算他听到
他和我讲话从来没面对面得讲因为我不是G
打电话给他他不会接因为我不是N
寄剪训他不会回答因为我不是Z
他会这样因为他是L

讲真的
我这三天回去还不是因为他
因该在家的这三天
最后知道答案了
对他来说我也只是个路人甲

接下来的这几天都不知道要不要回去
他都不想看到我
我看我也不要为难他了
我们就开始向左走向右走吧

发霉

2008-10-25T21:59:00.004+08:00

今天一整天在家
好闷啊
发剪训出去可是没有人回答
不知道是我太烦了还是什么
我看是吧

既然我这么烦
我看十二月十二号
就该回国了吧
这样其他人的生活就不会被我打扰到

我知道你要讲什么
逃避不是一个解决问题的方法
可是我已经试过其他方法了
就是试到别人认为我很烦
只好逃,闪,避

如果你原谅不了我,忘了我吧

2008-10-22T20:23:00.006+08:00

风
我弄他生气了
打给他他不要接
寄剪训给他他也不要回答
这次我说他到太过分了

我觉得我很没用
想安慰他因为他不喜欢他新的工作
反而弄他越来越讨厌我

风
可以快点带我回家吗
我不想再留在这了
我也不想为弄他跟讨厌我
不想出现在他面前

Late nights, early morning...

2008-10-20T19:41:00.004+08:00

That day went out with Vin and Kiat, felt like freeking long never go out late at night le. Like 10pm then reach home at about 5am to 6am. Envy them cause both got cars, haha, then I can take free rides. Everything was still the same, Vin still as cheeky as every and Kiat still always listening to other people's problem and council them. Suppose to go swim that morning so slept for like 2h then went to SSDC to book all my practical driving dates. After that waited for that sleepy head who wake up at 11 and told me he after go CMPB then go swimming. Which by then was raining so never mind.

Friday went to the airport to send Wei'an off. Haha, sad cause only Jian Wen went with me to send them and lucky Jian Wen went then got free ride. Lol. He got new car some more. Rich kid. Haiz. Speaking of cars, I pass my FTT le, now is chiong practical lesson. Haha. Have to thank Loo for the website he gave me and on Msn teaching me final theory. Personal tutor. Lol.

This week was quite a boring week. Other then going out with them I was stoning at home watching Gossip Girl XOXO. Lol. Wanted to ask someone go out to watch movie but he said he don't watch the shows I watch and the other shows he have watch them already. Vin busy with his girlfriend cause going into NS liao. Kiat busy with work. Me? Busy looking for new hand phone. Haha. Want to change to the Sony Ericsson's C905 which is still not out. Hope it can come out soon but I still have 2 months of time to wait.

不要管

2008-10-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

那天又打给风（这次的电话费会很贵）
她对我说
不要管
别人要怎样说我看我我都管不了
反正时间一到
我就要回家了
这些人因该不会再看到了
可能她说的对吧
我太在乎别人所说的话
所对我的看法

他说过
他看人是看外表的
可能因为这样
他才每次说我
最伤人的还是那三个字 so sad ah
听到了很想打他

现在什么都不想对他说
只是坐在他旁边
静静的看
有时候就假笑
连水都说我假笑越来越厉害

那三个找到这里的小鬼
你们敢说出去的话
剩下的两个月不会好过
哈哈, 开玩笑的
你们要说就说把

听

2008-10-11T18:53:00.002+08:00

以为
过了这么久终于找到了
找到一个
可以理解我心情
可以听我的烦恼
在他面前不用装坚强的人

可是我错了
你不会去了解去体会别人的心情
在你的世界里我也只是个路人甲
我已经很精力的尝试不做路人甲
你还是一样

那天只想要你听一下烦恼
你却对我说了三个字
我只好伤心地走掉

你们四个
好希望你们能快点回来
水谢谢你那天让我忘了我烦恼
虽然只是一下子
我很感激你

我/你

2008-09-28T00:03:00.003+08:00

每次生气却不想让对方知道
每次都不想让任何人知道
只会静静的笑
他在的时候

每次你都静静地离开

或当他来的时候

你就会假装有事先走一步

可是我不想伤害到对方
不想让他为这事烦

你在沙荒
你只是不想让你自己在烦恼
不想在伤害到自己
可是你知道吗
你每次这样会让自己跟烦
会跟伤害到自己

反正到最后他也会把我给忘了
我在他世界里也只是个路人甲
他也因该很讨厌我吧
每次和他说话
他只会骂我讲我说我
没有一次他会正常的和我说话

我好讨厌我自己

名字

2008-09-20T20:32:00.002+08:00

一张纸一个名
那天那张纸那个名
一阵风把它吹走
这张纸这个名
不只是一张纸一个名
它有了回忆记忆意义
把他们连起来的回忆
让他思念的记忆
在他心中的意义

是不是天意他也不知道
天对他说过他会死
怎么死的方法可能就是这样

过了那天他的烦恼他的混乱
就像那张纸那个名
可是他的回忆记忆意义也开始
像那张纸那个名
慢慢的离开他

Yos, back.

2008-09-20T03:16:00.001+08:00

This time the trip was more of a relax trip.

A lot of time to think, to wonder, to get my mind off stuff.

But this post is not about that. Haha. Just want to upload some photos

and knock off. Haha.

Tankees from the past and present. Eh the future one, haha, never go send us off. I think it has become a tradition to send any tankee going overseas. Lol. Quite touch by my ex trainees that they came to send me off. The bond that bring us together. But don't think the future tankees will go and send each other off. They did not go through what we have gone through. The hardship that made our ties stronger. Haha, okay going to stop crapping.

Finally get to eat the curry rice we always see in anime. Lol. But got sick of it cause it is sweet curry and it was cause we did not know can ask for different level of spiciness and the person who took our order did not ask us.

The toilet shop. Sells every food in a toilet bowl or shit shape. Just everything toilet. Don't know will be able the eat if I when it looks like shit?

And lastly san mao's dao face with some artistic feel. Lol. Spend a freeking long time to try and take it cause he keep on siaming. DAO.

Ok. Time to sleep.

假

2008-08-24T21:07:00.003+08:00

结果
走不回了
看到他
他却看不到我
叫他
他却听不到我
发信息
他很久才回答或忘了回答
他生日时还亲手做了个礼物给他
他却不知道我生日是几时

既然不想例会
我
我不想放弃
可是
我已经没办法了
已经很累了
看到对方
我只好用假笑地面对他
虽然我知道他不想看到我

我知道
假眼泪伤到对方
加笑伤到自己
要我伤到他
我不忍心

静

2008-08-17T16:15:00.002+08:00

风
敢用我的msn跟他讲话
可是
你应该知道我要说什么了吧
认识你那么多年
这还是第一次你不要袖手旁观
可是
还是要谢谢你
接下来是看他怎么做了

累

2008-08-16T17:42:00.002+08:00

想
不要去想了
反正想了那么多
事情还是一样

风
很抱歉浪费了你那么多时间
每次一有事就去找你
你因该市被我烦到无可奈何了吧
可是这次我不会听你的话
最后还是放弃了
我知道为了一句话而失去了一个朋友
是很不值得的
可是为了那句话
搞到今天这种地步接下来的日子
不是会跟糟糕吗？

我知道
是天意把他住的地方移到和我一样那楼
可是已经太迟了
接下来的日子一样那句话
看这办
反正他最近也把我当成透明的
朋友问他要不要和他们换位子这样大家可以坐在一起
他却大声地说不要
看到我也不想和我说话
我一个人坐在那里
他走的时候一声再见也不说
既然不想再见那就不再见好了
既然他不想我也不想勉强他

记得忘记

2008-08-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

还记得你所说的话吗？
叫我把过去忘了因为那时你不以中所说的话

从你生日那天我就一直在想方法忘掉它
每天和你聊天
每天都希望我们可以做回朋友
还记得你跟我要生日礼物
我就做了一个给你
可是现在你却很冷淡的对待我
我看我的生日是及时你也不懂吧

现在我想对你说
对不起我不可以在把这件事忘掉
可是你不用担心
因为有忘没忘都没有不同
因为现在你也不想和我说话
既然对方都不想说话和必要危难对方
何必要让对方以为我们是朋友
接下来的日子
我看就不用谈的
因为我们已经没有明天了

烦

2008-07-27T19:51:00.002+08:00

今天好烦啊
不知道为什么
试想很怪
连打字都觉得很怪
牛头不对马嘴

Guard duty

2008-07-06T20:00:00.004+08:00

That time did guard duty on a sunday.
Happen to be one of my most happening guard duty and it is not because of turn out or anything.
Haha, it was because my ex-trainees even trainees also visited me in guard room. Have to say it was quite weird, all those that were suppose to come did not come and those that were not suppose to all came.
Don't understand what I am trying to say? Haha, go guess ba. Only can say some book in the then remember I got guard duty. Saded.

Ok la not blaming you all. Got one more du lan one. Saw me also will not come over say hi. Cannot say is his fault cause I too short le ma. People tall even when we on the same bus or mrt he also cannot see me. Actually he never come talk to me also good thing cause you should know what I want to say next ba. Maybe I should stop talking to him, any objections?

Quite touch by my trainees. All bought food for me, haha, especially thanks to Edmund and Wei'An. One bought some snack when he was suppose to bring 老婆饼 for me, LOL, the other is the best one, bought 鲍鱼面 and 龙虾面 when he remembered I like to eat his one. Wahaha. Haven eatten them yet more like 舍不得吃.

Just found out a good way to make trainees listen to me, haha. Found out they are all afraid of my killer eyesight which I learn how to use durng the last course. Haha, sorry guys if you always think die ah he having mood swing again.

O ya Tuesday having guard duty but this time as guard commander. Not sure if I can do it well but never mind cause the people will be my trainees. Wahaha. Don't know if they can stand my nonsense or not.

自己

2008-06-15T13:40:00.004+08:00

最近一直看到认识的人
他对我说每次看到我都是一个人
连在兵营里也是

还记得那天晚上吗？
每个人都出去了
每个人都有东西做
我呢？还是一样一个人
被整个世界遗忘掉的人

现在
自己对自己说
自己笑自己
当初为什么要给那答案
弄到现在这种地步还被别人取笑
我真的好失败

想

2008-06-01T20:30:00.004+08:00

Going to make this a short one cause going to book in le.

The new batch of trainees has come actually also nothing much to say about them.
Haha. Prefer my previous batch. Yes I miss you guys.
I miss my number 2 and 3 and no I never forget you my favourite trainee. Lol.
Those I always go ji siao, Edmund, Chang, Loo, Yong Zhuang.
Those that ji siao with me, haha, referring to you la Poon.

To my crew (2 & 3 and FAVOURITE trainee) teaching you all I feel that it was a blessing
to me. You all are always prepared to receive what I give and most importantly remember
what I teach you all. Lastly seeing you all always go around helping other crews when you all
finish your servicing, gan dong. Haha.

To those I never mention, I don't think you can find my blog, haha, kidding kidding. Not don't want
to mention you guys but too many to mention.

P.S: My crew got people say you all have better knowledge then me, haha.
Be proud of yourselves and I hope you all can teach me what you all learn in unit.

真假

2008-05-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

有时候很想去到很远很远的地方
把手机留在家里
什么都不想去管
什么都不要去想

他们说每次有东西给我做我都会自己一个人去做
我不是不想找人来帮
是你们不会帮
一知道晚上可以出去你们可以不管工作就走了
你们是忘了或什么我也不想去管，不想知道

你问我为什么不想脱掉着面具
为了防，防人心
为了骗
骗他们我现在过得好
骗他们我是个很坚强的人
很多此很想大声的哭出来可是我不能
不能让他们看到我脆弱的一面
不能让其他人为我担心

对了
有些东西很想对你说
虽然你是不意地说出那些话的
可是我还是很难原谅你
你说把这件事忘掉
可是这伤质不好，忘不掉

对还是错?

2008-05-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

读到别人所写关于我的东西让我想我最近是太过分了。

最近心情很混乱又不懂是什么搞到这样的。
如果那人读到这的话我是想对你说
我气得不是因为你们不跟我讲话是因为你们不会来帮我。
有时候都不懂你们有没有东西做所以没叫你们。
要帮忙也只是需要你们帮我看住东西让我有点时间去吃而已。

结束了

2008-04-27T15:01:00.003+08:00

Trainees going to pop on Friday. Haha. Don't know if I will miss them a not.

Forgotten

2008-04-26T14:17:00.009+08:00

From the past it has been like this, in the present it remains the same, as for the future I don't think it will change. Haha, what I am referring to? Some weird thing about me. I know I do not make a huge impact in people's lives. Which is probably why I am always not mention but usually forgotten. Don't believe? Haha, one of my instructor wrote that I was from a different course course even though I was just from the previous batch. Another mention about another instructor and even trainee but did not even mention about me even though I with them. Even my own crew mate forgotten about my existence. Well, gotten use to it and just have to live with it.

Some how regretted my decision to become an instructor. My fellow colleagues do not trust me, cannot get the big picture and another does not even know what is going on. Only 3 people trust me. My appointment was just in name. Everything was told to another person and I was inform of nothing. Everything I tell and done for others was used as their own. Every time I always get a lot of shit and in the end have to stand by myself. Actually not really by myself. Still got 3 senior to look out for me. I really have to thank the 3 of them. One always makes me laugh the other always help me as much as he can the last one have faith in me.

Come to think of it. I think the 3 of us, our fate are about the same, always by ourselves.
For the next batch... 走一步算一步

I should stop procrastinating.

2008-02-24T16:54:00.003+08:00

Field camp sucks, even if it was only 2 days.
2 days of field camp and found out I sucks as an instructor. Feel that I do not really know how to push the trainees to move faster. Like on Friday I was the stand in DI, the trainees took a whole 2 hours plus just to finish their AOS. Is like all the timing I give them have no effect at all. Give them extra 15mins they treat it like 1 hour. Tell them not to sleep in the morning turns out I caught them sleeping 3 times. Maybe is time I stop being kind and punish them.

Lazy fingers

2007-12-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

Finally going to update this forsaken blog. :p
Haha. Trainees came in le. The driving phrase was still alright just feel that the trainees like to test people especially the NSF instructors. Haha. If they ever read this I am so dead. Haha. These few weekend also nothing much to do. Everyone was busy with their project and I am too lazy to leave my bed. Haha. Also not bad hanging around at home.

Spending all these time at home make you go look at the past. Haha. Found out I have lost touch with choir. Miss all those songs like jang ye, salmo 150 and many more which you all never hear before. Haha. Okay la, here is one I think you hear before, do you hear what I hear, but I prefer the four parts one. Lol.

Hmm, feel like ending here. Haha. The rest Saturday then update ba.

Inhuman

2007-11-04T01:35:00.000+08:00

These few days pass by quite fast. Today went out with Wei Xiang to watch superbad. Well, have no idea what to say about the movie, he find it quite funny. Me leh, don't get what the hell they are talking about. After the movie went to Mos and try to catch up on how things are. Well we also don't have much to catch up since it is just 2 weeks. So most of the time it was hearing how was unit life and me complaining about the usual stuff. Haha, I think he hear le also quite sian. Haha, I still want to go your house no matter how messy it is. I don't think it will be worst than mine ba. Haha.

ME?!

2007-10-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

You Are An ISFP

The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily.You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart.
At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone.You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.
How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive

What's" Your Personality Type?

谢谢6148和6160

2007-10-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

想到过去
为他们做的那些事真的好不值得
为你们做了那么多事不是因为我要你们的可怜或认同
我只是想要让你们可以轻松得过一次又一次的难关
要的不是你们买东西送我
也不要你们的同情
而是要你们帮那些需要帮忙的人

朋友听到我这么做只对我说一个字
傻

如果你们两个在读的话
放心我不是在讲你们
这几个月来多亏有你们的帮忙和体谅
我才可以顺利的过
想起来
是你们的为别人着想让我可以安心的做事

是你们的好玩和幽默让我每天都过得很快了

是你们当我不舒服或在忙时帮我作我需要做的东西

是你们在我生病时帮我承受惩罚

我真得很谢谢你们两个陪我过这五个月

昨天又看到人恶心的一面
实在不知道他们有没有想到其他人
还是满脑子都是关于到自己

起飞

2007-08-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

八月二十九日要飞了。

在这里跟到家先说再见。想起过去，到家都忙着做自己的事，没办法一起出去。
可能是时间，在漫长的岁月当中你们已经把我给忘了。在短短的一年内已经把旧的友情用新的去脐带。
可能回来时再跟你们出去吧。

这几天才发现，原来我家人是很关心我的。我的脚得到一种怪病。伤口一直出水却不会好，我婆婆就刚快买了药给我。一个小瓶的药一份心。让我想起天冷就回来这首歌。

去看医生时，看到一位婆婆为她的孙女买药，还是那种facial的药。最可笑的事着孙女已经有二十多岁了，看到这一点我认为人类真的是黑心的。你婆婆一大把年纪，那些钱都不懂够不够用，却为疼爱孙女儿拿去用，她孙女也就把那钱当成理所当然地拿去用。

Half way

2007-08-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

Yup I am half way through my course, this week was a crazy week. We had to mount and dismount the weapon and all the other shit on the tank in 5 mins. Crazy timing but we made it and we were told to feel proud. As if I will cause that whole thing made us waste more time rather than save time.

Haiz, today is national day and I spend the whole day at home, no one ask me out cause they all want to study or already have plan. I unable to come out on Saturday and Sunday then you all complain, have no idea what is wrong with humans.

Actually wanted to type some personal thought and all the other emotional stuff but I am running short of time. Haha, will update next book out which is after my field camp. Hope I survive.

guard duty

2007-07-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

Yos people of the mortal realm, came back from camp on friday but only update now. Haha, been too lazy to update recently.

Last week was learning about the tank (what else is there to learn). But the physical training was xiong. Ran SOC with 3L of water and 3 dummy load and they say have to make it within 10mins or get punish, I don't even think they are able to make it within the time limit themselves.

Next week they say going to be quite alright cause most lesson will be done in simulation room.

The most happening thing there was there was another COC parade but this time we were not confine because of the parade. MUAHAHA. But we did not quite like the old commander. Well, there was once 8 of us went to help out in the AOAC graduation. When everything finish we were told by the sirs to go eat with them as a kind of thanks for helping them. When we were taking the food half way, some guy came up to us and said are you officers? If not what are you doing here? Then we were so angry we feel like just throwing the food into the rubbish bin in front of him but then we decided we shall not waste food. So we just walk to the cookhouse. The graduating sirs on the other hand brought food over to the cookhouse cause some of us did not take enough. Haiz, the most sad part was we during the COC parade, we found out sergeants are classified as man, sian.

Well, next week I will be doing guard duty on Saturday, so don't bother looking for me on sat. But as if anyone of you will know cause no one ever reads this blog now.

CONFINED

2007-06-24T18:29:00.000+08:00

Stupid, I kana confine on Saturday till Sunday 3pm just because of some COC parade which disrupted our lesson. The worst part was they are not going to repay us back the time they confine us, and they say army was fair. Carp sia. Even those that took part in the NDP are able to get one day paid back.

This week went through the driving part, every night sleep in the morning and wake up at 545, some more they say TSR was important. Haiz, have no idea why have to go through 4 days of driving.

Haiz crap, also cannot type some more, later kana caught by dunno who ever for suaning them, talk about free country.

once in armor always in armor

2007-06-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

There is no way to escape the life of a armorer. They say it is very xiong, can service tank until 3am in the morning and wake up at 5am to continue with the next morning exercise. Haiz, don't know what to type these few days. Never go out cause too tired le. Hmm, I will be going Taiwan from 10/9 to 2/10. Haha. 3 weeks leh, going to miss u guys sia.

new place new people

2007-06-06T18:52:00.000+08:00

Going to new camp tomorrow, bro ask me to go 1.5h earlier. Really that far meh?

These few days spend slacking at home, haha, whole day just eat and sleep and watch tv and play computer. Went out a few times just to meet up with old friends and do some army stuff.

Yesterday leh went to changi airport. Mom went overseas again, enjoying herself sia. How I wish I could go also.

Haha, don't quite no what to type. Becoming more and more stupid le la.

Rejected

2007-05-27T17:48:00.000+08:00

Yup, just saw my letter from NUS saying all the crap but basically saying you are rejected. Sian. Now considering should I go poly. Best is NTU does not reject me but have a feeling they will. Haiz.

8 more days

2007-05-20T14:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm, this week did not go so well for me. Ran SOC and came back in 10.34, sian, failed by 5s. Haha. Then had to stay on Saturday for reSOC which cause me to sprain my legs. Now limping everywhere I go. The worst part was I had to do 2 guard duty for this week. Did one on Wed which the sergeant said was regimental and on Sat which was my punishment. Which cause me to lose all my Saturday plans. Haiz. Hope that was the last guard duty I have to do.

Next week will be another tiring week. Have fast march, endurance training, COC and SOC test. Haiz. Have no idea how I am going to survive the next week. Hmm, I think I will end here. Have no idea what really to type. Hope can pass SOC then don't have to stay back on Sat for reSOC.

1h 15mins again

2007-05-14T10:17:00.000+08:00

Haha, going to update at the same time left.

This week finally ended the last field camp, it was super crazy cause of all the night duty and wanderer. Did not even get much sleep and they say it is to train out combat fitness. Well my team mates say I did well for my fire movement cause everything went on smoothly and the instructor did not shout at me. Then they keep on laughing at my spelling, I know it sucks la. Comfirm this post quite a number of spelling mistakes cause my page something wrong then dunno how to do spelling check. Haha.

Hmm, this week book out have to wash the clothes myself. Took like 1 hour trying to remove the mud from the shirts, lucky no more field camp if not I have to waste my book out time just to wash mud. Then played majong again with Lian, Dennis and Ervin and lost money again, sian. The weather also quite crazy this time, rain then sun then rain. This is suppose to be the super hot season, how come so much rain, but it does not bother be cause NO MORE FIELD CAMP. MUAHAHA.

Haiz, first thing go back is get ready for SOC. This week doind all the OC, SOC, AOC and COC. Crazy one, thing going to get super tired after this week. On the other hand, they say I am the crazy one cause after field camp everyone went home wash clothes and sleep until next day 12 like that, me leh, sleep until 7 then wake up le, somemore sleep at 1am. Haha, now looking at it, I am crazy. More like inhuman. Haha.

Ok going to get ready to go back le. Hope this time book out on friday. BETTER BOOK OUT ON FRIDAY.

1h 15mins

2007-05-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz, have no idea what is wrong with my blog again.

Left with 1hour 15mins and I am here updating a blog that no one bothers to read, sad sia.

Last 2 weeks went through hell field camp which gave me cuts and thorns in my hand, hope don't get soil disease. Going back to camp and this time they say will be worst cause they going to takan us and do a lot of other stuff with of course everyone hates. Hope it will not be so bad. After this week everything should be smooth sailing.

Haiz, my mom going overseas this week, wanted to spend more time with her but then in the end could not cause need to wash the mud all these from my uniform then have to leave house soon. Seriously, life in hell makes things a lot worst for my civilian life. Looking at my bro, after he went through the 2 years, he rarely comes home to spend time with the family and if he does it will be like 1 or 2 in the morning.

Don't thing I going to type anymore, feel like just going to have dinner with my mom. Starting from next week have a feeling Saturdays and Sundays will be all by myself at home. O ya, next week mother's day right? Haiz, also don't have time to spend with my mom, sian.

Sorry for the blog being to choppy.

Where to turn to, Who to turn to

2007-05-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

Cry on my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you

If you need someone you're feeling blue

If you're away from love and you're alone

If you call your friends and nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide

Through a storm and through a lonely night

Then I show you there's a destiny

The best things in life

They're free

But if you wanna cry

Cry on my shoulder

If you need someone who cares for you

If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder

Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know

There's a place in heaven where we'll go

If heaven is a million years away

Oh just call me and I make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue

When the days are getting hard for you

I will always stay here by your side

I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry

Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know

What real love can do

What love can do

4.5 more weeks to go

2007-05-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

Haiz. These few days the training super tired. Last week go out field, this week go out field, next week go out field. Someone please save me from this super tiring course. Lucky this week got long week end. As for the second field camp leh, sure die one, only one day break. Don't even know how my clothes will dry.

Field camp was crazy, got so many battle scars. One cut in the palm, bruise until bleed on the elbow and knee, how am I going to survive the next 2 weeks. Then got quite a number of insect bites which i scratch until bleed also. Have a feeling they are sand fly bites.

This long weekend is more like a rest for me. Did not really went out everyday. Came home on Saturday and spend time with my bro and mom. Sunday was playing majong cause my bro's friend short of one person. Yesterday went to watch wild hogs, haha, lame and funny show. After that went to play majong again and lost money, sian. As for today, spend my time typing out the 3G army thing and now I finally update my blog just for myself to read. Haiz.

So how was my life in camp, got to say it is quite sucky. Too xiong for me. People inside are fun and most are like elite people, all so freaking smart one. Then they all have to book out for interview all these. Only 3 people never book out for interview but then I am the only one who went through all the training. The other two got report sick or during training not feeling well. Speaking of interview, I hope the letter from NTU come soon, though my results are quite sucky but must have hope that I can get into the course I want.

The people inside camp treat me quite well, actually they all treat me like small kid. Even the instructors treat me like small kid. Then got others, haha, like to use my shoulder to sleep cause they say nice to sleep on. Haiz, when will some one let me sleep on their shoulder. Hmm, one day I shall look for a person to let me sleep on their shoulder and I will properly get a neck ache or something like that. Really that nice to sleep on people's shoulder meh?

Going to new camp

2007-03-25T20:12:00.000+08:00

Haha. It has been so long since I last blog. Well a bit lazy even though I am in NS now. Nothing much to update though cause life there can only be explain in one word which is outstanding.

Here got picture we took in the multi-purpose hall. Haha, all trying to pose or act cool.

Posting results for those that don't know is I am posted to sispec. Hope will enjoy life there like in BMT.

For those that don't know my results, I got everything C.

Haiz. Quite sad now. Wanted to spend the last day before I go into Sispec with my family. In the end, they all busy with their own thing. Spend almost one whole day alone. Breakfast, lunch, dinner all eat facing my computer. Just staring at my computer, browsing through friendster. Think I shall add a few testimonials for you guys.

Going back to hell

2007-01-02T16:32:00.000+08:00

Yup I will be returning to hell in about three hours. But will be out on friday or thusday. I still do not see the point of going there you know. You all know where la some more I cannot say cause it is a chargeble offance. Everything there is a chargeble offance, I think they have a thick book then on top write chargeble offance. Haha. Actually going for the training is still ok, the only problem is we cannot take out time to do things and they always set unrealistic timings like change to this in 5 mins. I don't believe they can do it considering the travelling time all these. Haiz don't want to add le.

Well have to update more often even though I do not have much time to do that. Haha, bye guys.

TOMORROW LAST PAPER

2006-11-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

YEAH! GOING OUT TO CELEBRATE with very little people. Haiz so sad. You all don't wan to go. Especially 小可, ask him come out like will die like that. And is every time ask him come out he don't want to go. I give up liao la. Next time don't ask people go this kind of gathering le. Just ask the swimming gang wan to go out swim, sing, pool or dota. Badminton gang is officially disband le. Most of the people go swimming gang. Haha, some more got new members wo. Eh cat don't get the wrong idea why I never call you, is because I know you got TKD.
P.S: 小可我以后不会再叫你出门了，谁叫你讲你比较喜欢一个人出门，加上每次叫你出门你死都不要，别人一叫你你就去。

Nervous or maybe not

2006-11-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

I seriously cannot tell what I am feeling now. Feel scared yet like every thing is going to be just find. Maybe God has planted a auto feeling stabilizer into my body, quite a defective one cause I will not feel nervous but will always feel so happy. Hehe. Actually I still can crack jokes at this time. Haha. Lets see, a long one.
一位太太去到旅店，那里的保安人员看到她就问：太太来这里做什么？
太太回答：我来这里来抓奸。
保安人员又问：你抓到了会有什么反应？
太太回答：我就只好折一只眼闭一只眼。
保安人员就觉得那太太好伟大，他就让太太进旅店
太太就说：那你可以把你的抢借给我吧。
ha. Can get? If cannot then nevermind ba. Well wish me luck for tomorrow's exam. If you have not then you DIE. Haha, kidding.
See you all at 17 Nov. Actually is just see myself at 17 Nov since no one reads this.

actions

2006-10-08T18:12:00.000+08:00

Just a short one cause some people find me too crapy
There was once a leader who did things for the people of his country yet yield no results, his people feel that what he did was bad for the country. But 100 years later, the country feel that what he did has made the country or benefit the country today. If I remember correctly the leader was Napoleon. (Think so only)
Your actions leads to the results. Yet it is not the results that is important it is the action. However, in the real world, people see results as the fruit of your actions. We live in a weird world.

Devil got kissed by angel

2006-09-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

Haha, yup I got kissed by an angel but then is on the cheek. Hehe. Want to know who? Too bad cannot say, who ask you all don't wan to go chalet. Speaking of chalet, Here are some pics of all the drunk people at the chalet. Including me, haha.

Yup there is only 6 people who went. Jin lian leh never take with us, haha, she to busy le. So What did we do during the chalet? A lot of crazy things, we drink, we sing, we play prank and most importantly, we gamble. Haha. So sad did not gamble much cause was short on cash and the ATM there was spoiled. Haha, cannot post all the crazy pics and video or they will kill me. Lol. The 5 of us have to video of the NYP and NP SCANDAL. MUAHAHA. Can use it to threaten eh hem sia. This time the chalet was the most fun and it is the last one. So all those that never go, too bad lor. Then now is prelims, which I am so going to die for it. Math paper 2 was a total killer. The stats I see until I blurr. Haha, wish me luck.

By popular demand

2006-08-30T21:36:00.000+08:00

You all really like to see how short I am right? So this is how I look like in the other photo. Haha, see that green circle? Ya I cheated so will not look so short. Hehe. Now for the weird things I did at home. Hehe, I broke the thing that I use to wash the toilet. The destructive power of Dee's mom, haha. All Ee Wen's fault la, don't want to wash toilet then I have to wash. O ya, then there is the pair of black shoes. Hehe, those are my shoes, look cool right? And hope I don't break the mop tomorrow then I mop the floor. Next is my BIRTHDAY PRESENTS. Hehe I like those two shirts maybe cause they are in fashion now? Haha, for those who did not give me present I know what you can give me at 0 cost, YES it is 0 cost. The answer is I want this song called b4情歌. Haha, anyone of you have it? Then the last pic would be the one of my pencil box, the one cat gave to me.

Yes it is the one which fell during lecture and dee's crystal ball fell out and made the guy who thinks I am a stalker now also thinks I am weird. Cannot help it have the urge to say that. Haha. So now for you update on the members of the disbanded badminton gang. Vin has finish his exams, dennis and kiat still having them, James have no idea what is going on, seems like he is on one island while I am on another. Ong on attachment at a far~ away~ land~. That effect did not come out the way I planed it to be but who cares. Lets see still got who. Jamie busy with her thing who is going the be the next big thing in Singapore, about the world bank one. Then cat having mood swings, beware of her cat claws next week. GET THE HINT??? Haha.

Time

2006-08-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

You know people always say time waits for no one but has anyone thought of who time is rushing to meet?
Today left 65 days to A levels, been mugging even harder. Haha, looks like this year teacher's day no one is going back. I think I am not going back too cause no one accompany me go back.

These few days have been going back to school to study or attend lectures to get hints. Haha, during Saturday lecture something very bad happen. Well remember dee gave me this crystal ball thing and it is still in my pencil box? So the pencil box fell on the floor then the ball came out, the person in front of me helps me pick it up and gave me a very weird look. So now to him I am the stalker and the weird guy. But some how cannot blame me for "stalking" him. Lets see we meet almost every morning in the bus cause he live one bus stop away from me so naturally on our way home we also usually see each other. But now he scared I am stalking him so he change his method to go home. He now takes different bus home and come school just on the dot. Haha, dint know just going to school and coming home can scare a person so much. Maybe it is in my blood to make people feel scared?

So wonder what are these? Haha this is the potions from FF12 the game, meaning you all better not make me angry or I will drink these potions to recharge myself and cast curses on you. Haha, a bit lame. What else can I upload here.

Then this is my class pic. Finally upload one of my class pictures and the guy on my right (your left for those direction moron) is one head taller then me so the other pic where most of us are stand I don't feel like uploading cause I will feel super demoralised. Ending off here I guess, tomorrow is the start of my prelims so wish me good luck.

Lame doings of ber

2006-08-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

Well I learn day was not useful at all . Econs my com lag and they gave me all the correct answer, so you all can guess what I get for the mcq test la. Then there was math which the com did not help. Both of them just pass. Lastly there was stupid chem. They want us to hand in the difficult questions in the tutorial which are so hard to do. (if not why are they called difficult question) Out of all the questions I could only solve one, the rest I could not figure out the info given so could not do. Ask Vin leh he say he forgot le. Made me feel like killing him.

These few days been doing some lame things like this one. Haha, this one is a calendar I saw in J8, Japanese product. Very cool just that you have to change the dates every month. But I did not buy it. If I did, the next time you all come my house we can have a treasure hunt. Haha, who find the most number of days will win the game. Haha. Next picture on the list is my table which became my rough paper. Ta da. Nice?

SAND CASTLE

2006-08-10T00:24:00.000+08:00

Went with SR to go build sand castle at East Coast park. Haha, totally enjoyed myself. Did fun run and came in top 100 so got this cool collar pin with ugly color combinations. Haha, but it is cool.
And these pic is not the sand castle that my class build. Haha, but they look so cool.

And this is the one we build. Small but cute sia. Haha. Well then I thought of something fun to do, you know the mediacrop camera man always never get a chance to get into the picture. So now I am giving them a chance to go on screen. Haha. I know a bit lame but fun ma. And have you ever wonder why she is standing in such a weird position?

不知怎么形容我现在的感觉

2006-08-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

刚刚读了某人的blog. 其实我这外人什么都不该说，我只要跟他讲你还有我们。虽然我们不可以代替她的位子，可是我们至少可以在你伤心时和你一起走下这条路。我觉得自己好丢脸，当天我还叫他跟我们出来玩。现在，不知道要怎样对他开口。只好写这blog希望你能看到。
这句话好不向我啊。其实人真得很奇怪，大家都希望在世上的东西可以是永远的。可是，如果人的东西是永远的我们还会懂得珍惜它吗？就像有些人想要追求永远的感情，如果感情是永远的我们就不是学去珍惜感情。我们不失去就不知道东西的重要性，就像我们辉难过才会知道快乐是什么。
人啊人，为什么你那么简单却那么难了解。

Busy

2006-08-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

These few days keep on studying and I feel that it totally have no effect at all. School life sucks. These few days quite little thing happen, my master's birthday and vin's birthday, some one finally got together but I shall not talk about that cause later my master scold me for gossiping. Haha, wondering who my master is? Who on earth have suck great power over me? Hehe, don't want to say.
Well so many bad thing happen in my family, uncle has an affair, one aunt got stroke the other got cancer, and some idiot is cursing me. If I ever find the source of all these if they are not natural, the person will get hell from me.
Find it strange but what the hack, don't feel like continue to type anything, feel so sick as in I am really sick. So let me Knock myself out.
O ya, I finally solve the equation for why life is unfair. Keep on mind that scientist theory is everything came out from nothing (after so many year they finally believe in the book of genesis) and everything was in balance. Since what two things of opposite nature come together it will balance out. So this world have to be unfair and the fair world have to be keep far away from here as if fair and unfair comes together they will cancel each other out. (Imagine a world where nothing is fair or unfair) Nonsense theory but who would believe everything came out of nothing in the first place.

intelligence cannot be lost, can only be forgotten

2006-07-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

Not my point but nevermind. And haha, just trying something fun with the links ma.
These few days life is got so wrong, exams results = fail everything, family out of sudden having a lot of problem and my weight is starting to go up and down as and when it likes. Today was meet the parents day so went to school with mom and my teachers found out what they are not suppose to know. Yup, they found out I did not study at home then they even got my mom's number to make sure I stop playing computer games. Speaking of games, these few days have been playing Chrono Cross again. Haha, this time was because of the character called Pip who have like 3 final forms and I only unlock 2 of them. Cute character but time consuming to train.
Lets see what else to add. Heard the news that Singapore was trying to find a national dish, the funny thing was their choice of option which are Satay, Laska and bla bla bla. All of them are a wrong choice of dish to represent Singapore mainly because they represent only one culture or one race. They should choose some food that was created in Singapore and also represent out multi culture nation. But I guess you all cannot be bother cause these things are seriously out of our hands.
Today was suppose to go out with Lian and my bro to swim but then yesterday Lian called say she cannot go. So in the end never go swimming so went to jog, haha wanted to lose weight. From start feel that I am running out of breath or someone was trying to choke me, at least better then last time where they were pulling my leg. Haha, funny time to go jogging right?
You know in chinese culture, I feel that 7th month is like the most important time. During CNY some families just don't care or seldom go family visiting all these but when it comes to 7th month, they sure will burn hell money even some catholics ask priest to come blesstheir house. Funny people,ghost more important than family r? I know there was this chinese saying 不怕一万，只怕万一 but there is no point to worry until like that what. Or they feel that spirits are more powerful than 天堑.
Well I guess have nothing to add just that should I change the name of the links? Haha I should change ba.

time can change you but you can't change time

2006-07-23T20:06:00.000+08:00

This saturday anyone want to go out cause we thinking of going swimming, haha, then maybe we could go to Yo Chu Kang one and look for Mdm cho. Haha.
Yesterday went with Jamie to go support Joakim. Feel very bad (now that's a lie), was friends with Joakim for 10 years already but still never vote for him. Haha. Why not next time one of us do the voting then we just split the cost. Good right?
Haha. That day after I declare myself no clique, at night I went to chat with Vin and Lian and found that although in JC I only have a few friends but God have given me you guy in secondary school to make my life so much more enjoyable. There were even parts of me that I only show to you guys leh. Like my evil side which is not good, haha. Just want to say that some how we are more like family then friends.
And JC life not totally that bad, I have the bowling gang, Ah yong (she is going to kill me for calling her that), and the rest of the mugging gang.
Maybe the reason I ever went into CBSS is to meet with you guys, to meet the naggy yet fun teachers, the funky and very on people, the evil yet helpful people. O ya, lets go bake cookies again. Haha, miss the days we walk around the NTUC and buy things noisly. Then in my house we have the PS2 gang, anime gang, the reading comic gang, and the 3 people combi of the baking cookies gang. Those not in the 3 people combi is also part of the eat the cookies gang. Still love it when the whole class is one big clique.
P.S: Cat learn to care for yourself first before you start caring for others.

No clique

2006-07-21T17:45:00.000+08:00

Yup I officially declare myself have no clique. Well already knew I have no clique, have some sort of sign that none of the groups wanted me. Sad case. So now I am officially friendless in JC, maybe it is a sign telling me I will get no where there. Hate JC life and will encourage my children not to go into a JC.
Bowling people rocks, no matter how down you are they will always cheer you up. They even gave me this funky Key chain. When ever I am sad my mom will always SMS me to bring my spirit up, haha. Don't know what I will do without her. Then there is Sam who will always bring me out of my boredom and there is cent who will still always scold me but still fun to be with. Den leh, haha always there to crap with Hendi then I just stare at them. Ting no matter how down I become, she always come and we become super lamers, it always snows after that.
Secondary school friends leh, don't know all go where le. Some busy with new friends others have forgotten my existence even though we were good friends before. I am one sad case. Lets see who is left in the close friends section. Lian, 弟, vin, cat... Erm no one le ba.
Haiz, this week had 2 days off to go out with them but then, all no time. Hao xun ah. Don't want to say le.

Cut off

2006-07-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

Well, my teacher ask us to cut off out blogging all these. Nah, I don't think it will make a difference since I take such a long time to update my blog.
So many things happen this week. School has officially started and I have officially started DOING my tutorials. So those that want to buy 4D this is the week to buy. Why did I start doing my tutorials? Maybe is cause of my chemistry results that shocked me to start doing my tutorials. Tutors and adding extra lessons on our time table for the REST OF THE YEAR which means less time to go out with you guys. Even if they don't add I also don't think I have time to go out. Have to do tutorials, revision on top of that extra homework. Not that extra homework is bad but too much things can drive a person to madness you know. There was a think I was thinking about is how they define time after school. It is called free time, I know you are able to do whatever you want but if they give us so much homework they should just rename free time to extended school time. Even if it is free time I trust most of us would spent this time completing your tutorials all these ASSUMING you are a good boy. So we now declare free time to be called extended school time until you have completed your homework. (The we just makes it sound more grand)
Now to talk about how my social life sucks, well added someone on msn and I think the person is irritated by me so I have a feeling I have been blocked. Not his fault actually cause I do think I am irritating right? He also have been ka jiao by some bo liao people recently so can understand la. Well since I feel that I irritated him long enough, I did not bother to talk to him in school. (That did not sound right and I am childish aren't I) Again it makes no difference cause I seldom talk to him in school, I guess he just don't like to talk. (Well don't I like to assume things. Not my fault, Econ taught me that humans are very rational)
And now for my house life, normal, cooking dinner staying at home to help my mom do things for her work one like clinic work. Watching Will and Grace, listening to songs from 十二国记 which are just lots of weird songs, well I am weird. And last of all I am finally running. Haha. Well my house life sucks so when are we having the next majong session? My mom misses you guys. SHIT, just remembered my mom going overseas AGAIN. Well... SAM~~~ Haha, will be calling you to go out and makan and most important... STUDY!!!

Flung

2006-07-09T15:39:00.000+08:00

Ya I flung my chem paper3 and is flung until like shit. Scored 18%. Guess what Ervin said. He say dota some more la then I was like diaoz. But the worst part is I don't feel anything. I am not worried or anything. Maybe there are too many things going on until I am sick of worrying. But one thing is for sure I am starting to do my tutorials.
The bbq for my bowling well in the end is like not I organise one but who cares. We ordered the food from bbq wholesale and they delivered to my house. Can you imagine 2 ppl carrying food for 30 ppl from AMK to Bishan? Lucky got Sam come help me if not I will not know what to do. After that I started the fire most of the things is I do one cause the rest either too lazy or dunno how to do. Even food also I cook one. Okay not only me la, Sam and Cent also help out and they help out a lot.
At first is Ting come help with the cooking then later she went to eat and never come back, lucky Cent was there to help me before she left. But one good thing is where Ting is sure very fun one cause she will be doing lame stuff. She even got a password before fanning the fire. Bet you all can't guess what the password was. Then every time I do something to the food Cent always scold me. When the food looks cook and they want to try if it is still raw Cent will always look at me and say: You think the food cook le ma? Which is translated to Ber eat and try if it is cooked. Bully me sia. One day must ask him teach me DOTA. Haha, I too lousy le.
Then me and Cent went to eat and the sad thing was no one was taking care of the food and fire at the pit. So both of us hurry up eat finish then go back cook food. Then Sam saw me very ke lian came to help me. Which make me feel like I was being over protected. Well after the bbq Sam was saying next time I alone can call him then go eat or study bla bla bla. 我不小了，可以照顾我自己。Haha, but will call you if no one eating with me la. Then on our way back found out they guys know GH while I know GJ and GH. They were asking me who I think was more something since I know both of them. Well you all should know what the something is right? And my answer? Don't want to say. Haha.
Next day in school Ting went around saying Den they all, you all leave Ber to take all the food he very ke lian leh, lucky Sam went to help him. Haha, lucky I overheard which again makes me feel like I am over protected.
Well, ending my post here, actually is going to chiong tutorials. Haha, left with econs and chem to complete.

麻将

2006-06-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

今天发生了很多事，哈哈。我们跟石玲玲打麻将时最不可思议的事情发生了。石玲玲赢了很多场麻将加上她不在麻将上不是很厉害，应该是他交学费给我们的可是现在却反过来了。可能是因为我妈妈教她这样玩后她就开窍了。哈哈。赢了钱他却感到很奇怪因为是从她学生们生上赢来的。早知道叫她把钱还给我们，哈哈。
说到麻将，我发现最近一直很想打麻将，不只是上瘾了还是子想跟他们在一起。说是上瘾也不是因为我要停的时候会停啊，想跟他们出去也不是因为现在每个星期我们都一起去做运动。到底是为什么呢？神啊请你告诉我吧。
在学校老师叫我举行bbq，这bbq造了很多问题给我，从来没发现举行这种东西会这么难。每个人都没有一个共同没事的时间，还我要东问西问，问到来还是没有一个时间可以举行bbq。好凡啊。
放假真不像放假，差不多每天都要回学校，加上下个星期老师要举行魔鬼训练班，真不懂不回来时是死还是活。我也不认为这班会有效果。第一，我不是不知道这么做那些考题而是我懒得把东西记起来，如果你把那些reactants和products都写给我，我每一题都会做。可能就是因为我不喜欢死背东西老师才叫我去魔鬼班来鄙我把东西死背下来。
现在用华文写字好容易啊，只要打我要的自的萍英电脑就会自己找那最适合的字，方便吧。哈哈。虽然方便，我还是认为我不适合打华文字。不认为却大，我真是一个奇怪的人。读了我大的句子后，感到好像有一把菜刀把句子都砍到很多段，你读了应该也是则么觉得吧。
对了，下个星期一你们要去看戏吗？可能现在问已经太迟了吧，因为... 你们很少看我的blog了。哈哈，这也不可以怪你们啦，因为最近我真的好懒阿。

Last week of school coming up

2006-05-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

Yup, school holidays are coming and I am so happy that finally can have a break from school. These few weeks have been sleeping late to play computer games and to complete my tutorials. So tired, some more have to plan on the bowling farewell chalet but have to days that chalet is free so should be change to bbq le. Yesterday have been call down for dragon boat and I really enjoyed it. Haha, fun leh. We row to a spot then jump into the sea water which is very very salty, then we climb back onto the boat and played viking which is to seed on the left and right of the boat and start shaking it until our butts are wet. Haha, in the end we have to scoop up all the water in the boat. After that we had to race with another group and WE WON, YEAH.
Next week when you guys free? Cause we really really very long never play badminton le.
Eh one day we should all go wild wild wet. Haha, I wan to get tan.
O ya, Keng Fai in dragon boat leh, I so shock when I saw him in that cca. Haha.

Results sucks

2006-05-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

Yup my result sucks. My common test I failed one (MATH CAN YOU BELIEVE IT IS MATH) and the rest is pass at O level standard and fail at A level which is a fail also. Haiz. Have to start studying le. O ya, THXS MY WOMAN FOR READING MY BLOG. Haha, also my fault that no one comes to read la cause I very long never up date le.
In school now homework just keep coming and coming and holidays just keep going and going. SAD LA.
My chem teacher said that every time during tutorial I can do but during exams or test I cannot do, of course cannot la, during tutorial got one mind map to give all the reactions but during test or exam dun have, very big difference leh. Just like math, if you give me all the formulas I can do but without them I can don't take exam le. Speaking of math, my math teacher ask me why I fail math then I just told him I this kind don't do tutorial one you think can pass? Haha.
I think I have to visit the principle cause I fail my common test. Serves me right for not studying, although I did not study I am quite happy. Haha, cause now I have to thank my econs teacher, THANK YOU MR NEO. He help me a lot sia, from some one who sucks at writing econs essay to a better one. Cannot say I pro cause I am NOT. Ppl from my class get that in your head, I am not smart. Adele is the smart one. Me leh stupid one. Haha. But can see every one knows that Adele is smart, now everything is ask Adele. Haha, no more people bugging me during tutorials so I can continue my stoning.
So guys how is poly life now? Fun? Cause I know some one like some one le (confusing eh) then JL switch bf liao ( now is in the country one) Enen is now into dota my bro leh having lessons all the way to 6 (cannot take it must sms ur sis wo help u relieve stress, haha) miss my evil partner ( when wan to go out?) Then still got my 3 daughters don't know how are they now. Cat leh, not sure haha, some how feel got distance le.
Once again THANK YOU PING MY WOMAN.

After reading what I type I feel that some how the school part, don't sound like me but what the hack. PUBLISH.

忙

2006-04-02T13:30:00.000+08:00

哈哈.达击败年没写东东了(反正也很少人读这blog). 这次想涌华文来写.
这几月发生的事虽然不多,可是他们却使我手累的要命. 第一爸爸回来了. 今天又是爸爸的生日. 父母们在生日的时候还必须做平常做的家务. 哈哈, 我们做孩子的还真幸福啊.
最近的功课也越来越多. 不要在给我功课了啊.
特别是我的 GP 老师, 再班上没人喜欢她. 她给我们功课可是她只改其中的几个. 可能在十个里面只改两个. 做老师也不用做到这么懒吧. 虽然语文可以说是很难改, 可是为什么我的华文功课却改的那么快. 望了跟你们说, 我华文及格了. 恭喜我. YEAH!!! 现在我最喜欢的课目和老师还是化学(chem). 哈哈, 你们都知道在班上我化学可以说是满好的(脸皮还真厚). 在班上还是照样的不听课也不做功课. 不做功课还比较好, 上课时会抄老师的答案. 可是我一做功课时, 上课时就不专心, 哈哈. 可以说老师也知道我没专心, 所以她一抓到我不在听课是就会叫我回答问题. 最好笑的是我知道答案是什么. 哈哈, 老师就没办法叫我听课.
现在的我好想念你们啊, 猫生日时要不要出去呢? 上次你们一起去 chalet 是我没去. 好伤心啊. James 你在玩什么游戏?

Dragons suffer at the year of dog...

2006-01-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Yup, I guess I was quite busy. Haha. Have to complete all my holiday home work. The worst part was I complete my Chem but on the day which needs to hand in, I only brought the last 2 pages of the work. Some one must be cursing me. Next is econs, I did the question but cause I did not read the instructions I only did one part, the teacher saw it and scolded me. The only good thing is I still go out with my secondary school friends, some how I still don't think I can get along with my JC friends as well as my sec friends. Maybe is cause my secondary school is small. Or maybe is just because I cannot desert my duties as a moniter. Haha. Even though we lost contact I am still the one that brings them together like badminton gang, go back school to play, chalet (3 times last year I think) or just chat with teachers and going out. We actually got quite sick of each other cause we went out too many times. Haha. Until now we have no idea where to go. One more good thing is I going to change handphone. But the thing is the one I want is very expansive. Sob Sob. And they only have prompotion until 31 Jan which is the last day of my plan. So now I shall dive back into my books. Haha. Starting to hate my econs teacher. HE IS INHUMAN. Wonder any of my JC friends read this blog.

Sunday... (that was yesterday)

2006-01-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

Sunday. Went to church in the morning and heard something very interesting. A story about a married couple. Before marriage Catholics have to go through this session with the priest. If the couple getting married is one non-catholic, they will say that the catholic cannot change religion and if best the children have to get baptise. So before marriage the husband everything also okey. When they were having their first child the husband said if it is a girl then she can go get baptise but if it is a boy he have to be like him. The wife was very sad when she heard it. Even when she reminded him about what he said to the priest he still did not change his mind. So she went to novena to tell our mother about it as she wanted all her children to get baptise. So the first child was a girl. After that they had another girl and followed by another girl. The fourth child was also a girl. Until one day the husband ask why they always get a girl, so the wife told him about what she did and they will not get a boy unless he allows him to get baptise. So the father allow the baptise thing and the next child was a boy.

Freeky story. Haha. Now to continue chiong HW

HWHWHW

2005-12-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Now is the time to CHOING R. Zzz. Doing HW now and found out I do not understand a thing about chem and P and C. P and C leh, the most easy topic in A math I think. The good thing is I finally decided to go cut down weight. Haha. Too fat le.

for tag bored

2005-12-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

And if they do not ask her they will ask me cause I always in the same map as them or I am always with them. (do you even noe what this means). If i say no they will start saying sure anot? they always together leh. bla bla bla. Then some people might say to stop these people to stop asking you, ask them to ask her lah. This equals same result. I am like being force into this thing just because ong wants me to heal her character so she no need to waste so much mesos.
Then what you want me to do? quit maple r? I not like you got stead in singapore cannot always go out. Then you say go out with ervin they all but they always maple. Study? Since when do you see me study.

tired

2005-12-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

Ya I am dame tired. These few days keep on accompany my cousins go out.

The morning ritual
Every morning we will just sit in front of the tv and decay. We watch fruit basket or FMA sometimes even some english movies even though their english suck and I need to find shows with chinese sub.

The bloody sun.(afternoon)
Actually I have no idea what we usually do in the afternoon. Sometimes we go to the park sometimes continue to decay. And finally we go to walk walk and buy more vcds to watch.

The night cat.
At night we will go party or maybe go out play pool. Went to orchard at 25 dec. There was some sort of celebration there so it was really pack. There was also flower cars (is that what you call them?) and many display but not as good as last time. So we walk and walk until all of us start to fall apart. Wanted to take the underpass to the MRT but it was close. Miss by a few mins. So we have to walk there, walk and walk and saw a underpass. I went up to the policeman and ask him can this lead us to the MRT he said can. So we went through the underpass and when we came out, we cross the road. Zzz. So we walk back to our starting place and this time we walk to the MRT.
At the mrt I told them if get separated meet at AMK. My cousin complain that I was saying until she will be the one separated. Then when the MRT came it was fully pack and we keep on trying to find a door that was empty. Found one and all of us rush in but in the end my cousin did not make it. So saying to her was the right thing to do.

Zzz

2005-12-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

No mood to do anything. Don't feel like doing my homework nor maple. Haiz. What should I do?
Now I can 100% confirm they everyday talk on phone, don't believe me? Can call and try. All of us wondering when the hell will they get together.
So what happen these few days.
Monday went to bring some one I don't know to tour Singapore. The best part is when how to fetch the person from the airport.
Tuesday went to play badminton and nothing much
Today went out with my mom after her long trip to China. When we went out for lunch I found something very extraordinary. One of the lady working at the coffee shop is collecting empty can not for herself but for her neighbour. What is so extraordinary when this can be seen everyday at the old folks home? Well it is simply because she works in a coffee shop. All of you know this kind of job is low paying (bla bla bla), the fact that she cares more about the people around her compared to herself is special.
And I can some how say I stop maple liao.

Awake

2005-12-15T11:29:00.000+08:00

Yup I am awake but still feeling a bit strange. Actually I just woke up to watch TV cause of the comedy shows. Haha. Haiz, now a new person got BF so planning to play badminton even more harder. You all purposely one right? Want to make life hard for me. Maybe I should quit the organising committee which consist of only one person, me plus James who sometimes try to help me. For once why not you all try to plan when to play badminton.
O ya, I have a problem which need you all to help me solve.
Online one day you ask who wants to watch a movie then your friends give you their reply. Then the day before the movie one of them feeling not well however it was not the sick person(A) who told you about it, someone else told you(By the way the person is just someone close to A) . Further more (A) did not know you know that he/she is sick.(Confusing right?) So if on that day of the movie, (A) still did not tell you that he/she is sick. Is that person at fault or that person has done nothing wrong.
One last thing, I am so not talking to that ass, he made me feel like vomiting blood by the way he reply.

not feeling well

2005-12-15T07:15:00.000+08:00

Reason being I just went for morning jog. Now got headach but the thing is I only run for 3.5 rounds. My eardrums also hurt like hell. PAIN.
O yes, someone going to go on stead le(finally). The person you all know one, is the ass and da. Haha, those blur le just guess, very easy one.
Now going to go to sleep. Miss my bed.

Missing

2005-12-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

Haiz. When will be the time when everyone in badminton gang can go for badminton together and not some missing. The effect of one person not being there is quite big actually. Like Jamie is the one who always makes us laugh with what she says while Ervin is the one who kills people with the shuttercock. James will be there doing actions while most of us try to mimic them. As for me, I will be the one running around hitting the shuttercock. Haha. When Jamie does not come the court will sometimes be silent, when ervin does not come some of us may feel uneasy as there are no shuttercocks to avoid.
Now some of them are going out with their new clicks like cat always go out with her nursing friends and Jamie is busy with her CCA. Ong leh, haiz don't say le. Anyway the whole badminton gang knows it. Haha.
So could the gang be falling apart?(Must be due to most of us playing Maple :P) Haha.

Died

2005-11-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

Hate people who leach from ME in the game (unless I allow it) and people who say go toilet then don't know disappear to where (also leaching from me)

Sky high

2005-11-10T08:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to watch sky high with my evil partner and ah ma. Haha. Ah ma was late cause she end school at 12 and our show was 1210 but lucky us, when we entered the advertisement just ended. We wanted to go to out sits but there was 2 love birds blocking our way so we decided to sit at the back row. Just when the sit is warm, the owners of the sit came, so we had to move to our actual sits (so ma lu). Sky high totally rocks, you all should watch it.
So after the movie, we went to eat pastamania. Because it was my first time eating that I had no idea what to eat. When I figured out what I wanted t eat I ask my evil partner why the person never come and take our orders one. Haha, she say you must go there and order yourself and ask me I first time eat r? You know in those tone where is a bit sarcastic. But when I said yes they were like O~~. Haha. Then we talk about crazy staff again. O ya, one day all of us go play starcraft. Haha, very long never touch le.
So after lunch we went to check prices of staff for my evil partner. Then the rest of the day pass as usual.
O yes, who wan to watch Harry potter on 17 Nov. 6pm at J8.

God forsaken blog

2005-11-08T10:08:00.000+08:00

Yup this is a god forsaken blog. Haha. I am only blogging now cause I cannot play maple. Haha. A lot of things happen. Went out a lot during these few day and found out I getting a bit like ah beng. Haha. Even though I know it will be so unlike me. I think is being influence by my bro cause after he went into NS he start scolding "#@%$" you all should know what that means. And then I also start scolding "%$#@&". Haha. A bit more colorful then his.
To say the truth JC life sucks made almost 0 friends and made many enemies, now even some secondary school friends are my enemies but the problem is I don't even know why they hate me. Weird people.
Went to Malaysia to attend my cousin's wedding. Haha, still prefer Malaysia to Singapore, the air there is better cause there are a lot of trees. Or maybe is I prefer the kampong life. Or maybe cause there have less stress. In Malaysia me and my bro always feel that we are at home, even though we can spend one whole day doing nothing we still think it is better then Singapore. Haha, cause doing nothing there is less costly compared to Singapore.
So the wedding dinner totally sucks cause of the food, feel that there is no taste in them, Ok I know I am exaggerating, there is little taste in them. But the entertainment is good, cause my aunt teaches dance, so before and during the wedding there is the free dance session where people can just go to the center and dance.
So going to end the post here. O ya, any of you want to watch Harry potter? Evil partner you want to watch right? So who else to call?
Forgot to add, Jamie very long never see you le. Miss my evil partner.

Addicted

2005-10-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

Haha, at first you keep on saying you are not addicted to the game but in the end you will find yourself keep on playing it.
Today went to school and I pass. I should not use the word pass cause it can mean many things. I got promoted. Yeah I think cause I still do not know if I want to go into a poly a not. poly is quite fun I guess. No, should not be I guess, poly is very fun. So after school went for bowling and found out that most of them play maple story but the sad part is they play in another server. The weird thing is when I say I was 43 they were all shocked. It is easy to get to level 43 I think. Haha. After bowling rush to play badminton with the badminton gang. After that went out to eat and saw miss Lim and Mr Lin, haha, Ervin said they go out eat never call him. Haha. So eat and eat then they decided to come my house and create havoc. So this was how my busy day pass and now I am dead beat. I am going to sleep. Good night everyone.

PW SUCKS

2005-10-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

Just here to tell the whole world that PW sucks (maybe I will get jailed for this). It take up too much of our time. Why can't the 10% to enter university come from our CCA? Further more the everyone is telling us that CCA is important but now in JC CCA has become not so important. So what is CCA for? Is is just some activity for us to relax or is there a big picture behind it.